i suddenly dont feel like going to work tomorrow.

i suddenly dont feel like doing anything at all.

i suddenly..

suddenly..

fell down & out.

i've stepped out of something. that i've always holded on to & placed all my hopes on.

i hoped that you would change for the better. gone.

i hoped that you'll pick me from work. gone.

i hoped that we can meet up often. gone.

i hoped that you would take the initiative to do things. gone.

i hoped for so many things. now its all gone.

it isnt easy to be strong. especially when its a fake strong front.

i bought something home today. something that i vowed never to touch again. something that was thrown into the dustbin time & time & again. i wonder if i will use it.

goodbye my lover,
goodbye my friend,
you've been the one.
you've been the one for me.

rachel, stop crying.