unhappy

I AM UNHAPPY.

all thanks to the stupid cramps. i'm back home EARLY. i didnt even shop at all. bloody shit. and when im home, i cant get to sleep & my cramps dont hurt anymore. body playing a fool with me or smthng. shit this thing. my cargo pants. now i've to go down to town again. and worst, i pangseh-ed my friends la. :(

sorry yena & lizhen. i'll make it up to you all ya? (:

another thing that my stupid cramps caused. arguements. maybe i'm thinking too much. but somehow, i dont feel you with me anymore. ah, whatever.

my eyes sting, from all th crying. something's damn wrong. my emotions are taking over me, instead of me being me.

i'm lying on th bed, typing this. i feel like going back down to town again. i wanna get my damn cargo pants la! and my bag. UGH.

and i realised today that, my lappie can fit into my bag :) and i can carry it, not that heavy also. WOOHOO! but that is without the adapter/books in my bag. LOL. i need a bigger bag, and i need a outing bag. UGH.

i wasted food, only manage to finish 1/2 the plate of ham & sausage baked rice. and drank a cup of warm water. :(( ugh. i hate this la! hate this bloody cramps :(

im sorry baby. dont be mad.

the stupid bus ride to town was a killer! yena was on th verge of puking, and i? on the verge of swearing at th bus driver. BLOODY HEEELLLL. he wanna cut lanes, doesnt wanna drive properly. 3/4 th journey all i was hearing are HONKS, HONKS & MORE HONKS. maybe SMRT should conduct crash courses on how to be a courteous driver or, how to control the bus & give passengers a smooth ride. ohhhhhhhh whatever.

im watching youtube. :( nothing to do. i nidda shit, and i'll probably try to complete up my java. WOOOHOOO. im at part 5 alr :) i didnt regret going for lessons today. gained alot of help. :))

oh man, this is entry is like so random. SO SO random. i miss esther. when are we gonna get our neckermann's! :D when are we going shopping again? our last shopping trip was damn long ago :(

the mates are going for steamboat on friday. hahaha, all because of me! lol. not sure if i'm going tho :( i wanna meet up with my baby.

stomach is hurting again. whatever, i'm going to surf youtube :D best entertainment around. fwahah, gonna watch all th funkamania clips :D that's gonna take damn long tho.


toodles. :d

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im so in love with high school musical's song :D gabriella aka Vanessa Anne Hudgens is damn prettttty :) hot. yea whatever i do have some lesbian tendencies - for th pretty girls :D

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there

Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along

But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's and
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
whoooo whooooooo
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

it's damn nice please her voice. powerful :D

HAHA, and apparently, my dad submitted the whole family's photo to the smiles 2006, 4 million smiles thingy. WTFFFF. hahaha. they sent me a mail, and i was STUNT. couldn't my dad take a nicer photo of me :( THE PHOTO IS DAMN UGLY PLEASE. oh yes :) holidays coming. WWW anybody? chalet anybody?

i feel so much better after banging on th piano :) got many more new scores from my-piano. but, i still can't find my bad day :( UGH.

yadayada. my block is undergoing renovations, so it's darn noisy and dust is EVERYWHERE please. irritating la. and so many banglas around. bleh.

toodles :d

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