reluctancy.

i suddenly feel reluctant to return to school.

i feel so foreign, feels like i'm back to what i was 6months ago. starting school in a whole new BIG HUGE environment. of course, my consolation are the very, good friends i made durings this short span of time :)

going to school alone tomorrow makes me feel kinda weird, like i'm so not used to walking to the oh-so-far interchange, and taking the bus with tons of people going to the same destination - ngeeannpoly. i just feel so weird & lost. i wished my friends could take the same bus with me :( & we'll make loads of noise on the bus, that would lighten up the mood alot.

anyhow, today marks the end of my 2 month working stint. i left with mix feelings, both happiness & sadness.

overall, it's sadness. lol. it was fun working in sentosa & i've not regretted going for this job. i always thought that i'm an office person, apparently, i've proved myself wrong during this 2 months.

i've made friends/"enemies" while working. & of course, my very good friends still stands by to pick me up when i fall. i'll miss the crap we all have after work, sitting inside the store. & when i'm waiting for the mates, loitering around with derek. i'm gonna miss zayra & joseph. i'm gonna miss the ICE CREAM SCOOP :D



consolation i have? the mates are still around.

i wish life would be that pleasant, having people i know everywhere i go, or having them go with me :) but no, life's not that pleasant. & i'm already bombarded with meeting new friends & MAKING new friends at the age of 17 for every new semester, i swear it's gonna kill me sooner or later. i LOATHE opening up all over again.

very well, hope my exposure in sentosa will.. allow me to muster up some courage. i hope, wish & pray. lol.

it's time to hit the sack, i'll be up & running in 7 hours time. horrible, but then again, my blog would be much more active from tomorrow onwards.

what do you expect me to do? :) i've a laptop, internet connection, perfect ambience with the lecturer droning on & on. brain juice starts flowing - although for the wrong thing.

& yes, how do i get from harbourfront to orchard, by private transport? instead of going on bigggg round to clementi & down holland?


goodnight world, i wish everyday was like today. simple & good.

:)

If your heart's not in it - Westlife.

HAHAHAHA :D freaking nice song pls. thanks kervin. HAHAHA :D

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days was alright. shall blog in points. freaking lazy :D

work started alright, without spoons/cups & wedges.
cleared up alot of mess & ice cream. left with five cartons sucks.
some group of people came & collected ice cream.
left with 3 half cartons :D
slacked all the way.
happy birthday zayra. :)
went t vivo, stupid cinema so many people.
went t cathay, burnt bits of my leg, kenna th exhaust. 
i'll remember alvin forever -.-
had yoshinoya for dinner, first time? i guess.
watched WTC. almost froze to death inside.
stupid lame draggy show. your love kept me alive. HAHAHA.
came home. & tadah, conference up till now.

i nidda bath &
 all of us still cant accept the fact that we're going to school tomorrow.
gotta be in school by 815, meeting the mates.
how the hell i'm gonna wake up, i've got noooo idea :)
but anyhow. dress code, anyhow whack alr! LOL.

oh wells. :)
i dont think i can sleep at 12 alr,
talking too much crap with them. LOL! :)

so how was ur day today? rate it 1 to 7.
mine's 7! i'm crazy :D

okay, ryan is lame. :)))


breakfast tomorrow shall be.. no idea :)

there's no scar. PHEW. hahahaha

hmmmm. alrights :D

toodles. :D


PS. comment whoever is reading. LOL! :)
denise, thankyou! love ya very much :DD
we shall show our faces in unity & tanglin soon uhhh. :D

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I'm missing you
Girlboy even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
It's the last thing that I wanna hear

Chorus:
But if your heart's not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girlboy. I'll make it easy for you

Chorus:
If your hearts not in it, for real
Please dont try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
There's nothing I can do
To stop from losing you
I can't make you change your mind
If your heart's not in it

Chorus:
If your hearts not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

Stuck - stacie orrico.

I can’t get out of bed today or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way to leave the love behind
I ain't tripping, I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean

You kept me hanging from a string, why you make me cry?
I tried to give you everything, but you just gave me lies
I ain't tripping, I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean yeah

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
And say you want me back, but you never do
I feel like such a fool, there’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you

I can’t take it, what am I waiting for?
My heart's still breaking, I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it, the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you

Now, love's a broken record that’s been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday, why we gots to play these games we play?
I ain't tripping, I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean yeah

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
And say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool

I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My heart's still breaking, I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it, the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinkin’ of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you

I am stuck on yoooou
yoooooou
oooooooooo

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
And say you want me back, but you never do
I feel like such a fool, there’s nothing I can do,
I’m such a fool for you

I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My heart's still breaking, I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it, the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
I don’t know what to do
I’m stuck on you


uhhuh, sucha right song for me. hor yena? i'm stuck on you.

saaaaaturday.

something is wrong with this stupid new template shit lar! whatever, they just keep telling me there's an error, but i cant seem to find the error after long excessive readings of the code. BLAH. screwing my eyes up. whatever.

i counted my chickens too early, i might now be gng to sydney afterall. unless i've got enough cash to pay for my air tickets :) anyone?

dad's selfish lar! he dont wanna pay for my tix. AHHH!! :( selfish :(

i realised i blog wrongly. i saw a dodge viper tomorrowyesterday. LOL.

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went to CSC just now. dad went to register for some social dance class. & us? we went to bowl for half an hour there was some stupid tournament going on. so we.. had to go.

i wont ever bowl at CSC again, EVER! unless i've got my own ball. the holes are so small & the holes are oily. i kept on losing grip. half my throws went down the drain. wtf pls. ended up with only 69pts. DAMN GREAT.and i broke a nail. -.- i'm thinking of picking it up as a hobbby leh. but nobody's gonna fund me.

so as usual, i always eat alot when i'm out with my family. all they think about is eating, eating and eating. lol! had this rather pathetic & lousy blackpepper chicken shred sandwich. ended up eating chicken wings @ the cafe next to the pool.

went down to science center to watch the stupid omnimax thing. BORING. was dozing away. i dont know what's with me dozing off in movies nowadays.

went to IMM to walk around & bot potato chips. WAHHAHA. wanted to eat some big meal or smthng :x but ended up at kopitiam :( failed attempt to make dad spend money! but i had ang zhao chicken mee sua. DAMN SHIOKK. but, not better then mom's cooking lar.

oh well. :) nothing much alr. i dont know what to do with the blogskin. damn scrwd.


i want fundings to sydney :(

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i just cant stop screwing things up. sometimes i dont do it on purpose, but it just comes out that way. oh man.


laters.

MESSED UP!

firstly, my blog is in a huge mess! :) i realised that my friends are all lazy buggers who dont like to click on the COMMENT link t comment. hello lazy buggers!! :D & in the midst of changing my blogskin, i realised i didn't save the LAST blogskin :) so now i'm searching for a new one to edit & change. my links are all gone! so i've to slowly, painstakingly type in the long excessive codes of links :) HAHAHA.

secondly, i think i've never seen a good friend of mine, throwing in all her efforts to get my out of this pile of shit. she'll risk her life to eliminate whoever that's hurting me. EHEM, so dont try hor :)

thirdly, DENISE TAN LI LOO if you're seeing this, i havent talked to you for a long time, MSN ME PLEASE when you're free. we've got tons to talk about & erh, yea this might sound sudden. do you even read?!?! :D

fourthly, i've got a new gate at home :) random but the drillings & stuff woke me up from my sleep.

fifthly? HAHAHAHA, school is starting in TWO days. :(

sixthly, i'm proud to say i've two shameless friends. :)

seventhly, my sis is ignoring me! :( punishment for not being home for so many days?!

eightly, i saw a dodge viper tomorrow. super pretty pls :))))

okay, i copied yena's blogging method for her last post. :D

lastly,

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i'm going to sydney end of december! :DDDDDD

lalalala, i'm a happy girl! :) envy me pls :D





i cant think of anything to blog already. oh well. mom's got new dvds. time t chiong again :) after i'm done clearing up the mess. :D


laters!

chill out.

chill out day with the mates.

put yena, lizhen, shawn, ryan & i together. all you get is utter loads of crap & pouring troubles session.

we dont really need a place to chill, put us in a coffeeshop with kopi/teh/soyabean/greentea/barley & we'll sit & talk like nobodies business.

so we walked from MS, to fullerton, to boat quay (going one big huge round) to clarke quay. settling down in the middle for dinner break @ BurgerKing coffeeshop.

as usual, sat & chatted about the class, always. it's always the class. always forever is the class. & talked about clubbing - not ready yet pls :) wanted t grab a bacardi from 7-11 but no cash. spoiler!

we chatted at mccafe also. over matters of the heart. it really sucks.

yena dared me, to wear a long skirt out (the bohe kind) & she'll roll on the floor for a good half an hour. NO PROB MAN :) i'll do it! watch & see.

& shawn dared us. to dress as TWITS with pink hair & he'll run along orchard NAKED or until he gets caught by the police.

moral of th story, dont dare us man!

:) i had fun. loads of fun!

we found actors it's actually a pub for anyone to jam. its a pretty nice place to chill :) one day we'll pop by after school.

yena & lizhen are damn funny pls :) they used all sorts of method to hail a cab for me to get home. so damn hilarious. & they didnt realise that there were people opposite. hahaha! i love them :) & nothings gonna come in between.


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i hate clement chong. LOL. he's filthy rich & showing off his ASSETS and shit! I HATE YOU. ahhahaha.

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i came up with a theory while i was bathing. yea, i have too much on my mind that i think even when i bath.

love is bittersweet.

you wanna love, but yet, sometimes it makes you so frustrated you wanna hate.

hate always overcomes love. sweetness can never overcome bitterness, never, ever.

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now, i feel like doing just one thing. throwing everything aside and be alone. i hate this thing going on man.

i hate to be made use of. geddit?


whatever.

xoxo,
rachel

proven.

i think i can pretty dumb at times.

sony ericsson phones make you confirm twice the receipient of the msg before sending it out.

i always curse & swear when people dont reply my msges.

& the other thing that will make me curse and swear is that...

i realise i havent send out the msg & stupidly waiting for reply - cursing & swearing at the person. HAHAHAHA. how dumb pls :X


thats me. huge dumbo :)

im hungry. gastric attacking! blaaa.

i hate mosquitos.

sentosa is MOSQUITO heaven man. i think they shld drop some kinda insect repellant bomb on the whole island. get rid of all the irritating mosquitos. BAHH!!

my whole leg is filled with mosquito bites. bah! hate it.

i forgot to mention, linges gave me a soft toy ytd :D hahaha! he said he would bring something up. but he always! forget. ytd he went into cable car station & came out with a soft toy, a dog which is a hp holder (my sentence construction is wrong but heck!)

:D i've nice colleagues.

sentosa is the best place to work without the mozzies it'll be the GREATEST. the people there are super friendly - cause they have to be friendly. & therefore working experience BEST! :D

gotta go get ready soon :) i'm so tired! slept at 2plus, woke up at 10plus & chiong housework :D now i'm free t go out!

countdown : 3more days t school reopen

that sucks.

but i guess my blog entries would be more interesting when school starts :D loads of crap to talk about, as usual.

gotta open up my eyes, be more observant - catch the stupid people doing stupid things, & make just for laughs on rachel's blog.





load of crap.


laters :)

DRUNK.

LIME MAGARITA ROCKS. :)))))

but then again, too strong for me lar! & the lime taste very strong, makes it quite bitter.

but then, thanks seph! :)

& slacked at store after work, waiting for the others to come back. derek opened the cigar in the drawer & we smoked cigar!

it's quite alright, dont know how to describe it. afterall, it's the first time i'm "smoking" but didnt really swallow the smoke, just wanted the taste. taste HOT, burning. i dunno why. swallowed abit of smoke & coughed. derek laughed -.- wtf.

uhh. i know its not a great thing to smoke, but no. i'm not getting hooked on. i'm not gonna smoke. at least for now lar.

got really big reactions from people when they knew. yea i know. rachel always goes "dont smoke lar. bad for health." or daring people not to smoke. i wont. :)

long day tomorrow.

oh well.. i dont know if i'm ready to meet up. but then, :)


hahahahaha. interesting day today.

toodles :)

i'm dreading work.

gotta leave soon :( sigh. no idea who to replace me. so dont even bother looking lar!

had nicenice lunch, nasi lemak from yew tee :)

oh well.. taking the bus is a chore. suddenly feels damn long.. hahahaha, a fly home rides & i'm not used t it alr. wtf?!

i desperately need a car. license.. whatever that can make me fly home. ahhahaha

whatever. i'm crazy :)

toodles.

it's 2am.

i'm watching a new hk show. under the canopy of love. DAMN FUNNY.

but i'm super tired. gonna K.O anytime. but its good. lie down & sleep. dont have t think abt anything at all.

i think the situation sucks. yena's right. KILL the root of the problem. yena, i leave the job t you yea, watergun for you? :X

i'm beginning to build up hatred.

i want fried rice with alot alot of fishcake & hotdogs. who can cook for me?!

another half an hour & i can go t bed.

RANDOM

oh fuck shit. HAHAHAHA. i just deleted the WHOLE CHUNK of things i blogged. i can't be madder den a mad cow now pls. i'm already boiling inside & my stupidness just caused it to boil more. HOW GREATTT.

but anyhow, i dont wanna rant anymore :) i just feel like shit cause i'm always going back to work on last minute basis & always happens to be on my off days. or either that, i'm made to work fullshift cause some people are irresponsible.

have some responsibility please.

ohwell. i'm drained, super tired. :(

sometimes i really wish that i'll have nothing to think about at all. a blank mind instead of a full mind. a full mind & a full day doing things cause me to be damn tired.

but anyhow! :)

had free coffeebean drinks & cheesecakes! the new drink, hazelnut was damn nice :) zayra was soooooo jealous, in the end i got a cup for her :D cheesecake give derek, he dont wan. alvin ate it in the end.

zayra's birthday is coming :D she's damn nice! so she'll get a nice nice birthday present from me & yena.

i hope tomorrow i go to work, the place WONT be in a mess. else i'll faint. on the spot. & there will be things to keep me busy for 4 hours.

i wonder how much my next pay's gonna be. hmmmm.

i cant wait to get my driving license :( soon soon, a few more months. OH MAN.

i so hate january babies. LOL.




ohwell. i'm being so random :)



hazelnut! :) damn nice & shiok. go try it man, no regrets! & dont bother about me, i'm just being spastic.


xoxo,

rachel. :)

im stuck in another dimension. nowhere here & nowhere there.

walking foward will cause me to knock into the rather oblivious wall that i KNOW is already there.

walking backward would only.. fall backwards into a bottomless pit that i've been living in for 2 years already.

sometimes its tough, being stuck in another dimension. oh well. whatever mannnnnn. wahahahha.


its an idiotic situation. bahbah

im sitting at skybarr.. slacking on the chair. laughing with yena. WAHAHAHHA.

i've got two huge ass big mosquito bites side by side on my ankle area, and one abit higher. wth?! its damn painful lar. waitamin, mosquito bites painful?! i think i scratch too much. LOL

& its gonna rain, how am i gonna go to work?! oh man! & i'm pretty lazy t bring my lappie :p but tomorrow zayra's off. den got no chance to help her alr :( oh welll.. but so ma fan lar if it rains :(

i'm having muscle aches. so weakkkkk. muscle aches from 4 games. HAHAHA, i suck man :(

& i realise esther havent bowl with meee. since my birthday. complain nails so long dont wanna play. ehem, aunty when u gonna play with me?!?! when all ur nails break? hahahaha :D

i miss ong, seng & asyraf lar! funniest ass around. i wonder how they're doing with their.. wings. :D all of them have gone MIA. nv even tag my board already. ehem, excuse me gentlemen.

oh well. gotta go get ready for work. BORINGGGGG. why must it rainnnn! :(

byebye sentimentals. r&b i'm coming backkk.


toodles. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYNA

so today's her actual birth date. ahh, 7 years old already. time flies by super quickly :( awww, i miss her being small, chubby & carriable. LOL. now she's so LONGGG i cant carry her & she's heavy -.-

but anyhow, i am glad i did rush back for dinner :) had jacks place! i'm being stuffed with good food nowadays. & thankgod mom didnt continue ranting.. phewww.

but anyhow, before that. went for a short game of bowling @ cdans. destress abit huh. feel like i'm being driven to a corner. sigh, things i do just to.. get u away. geddit? not purposely, but i dont wanna hang on anymore. make decisions & never regret. i aint.

did pretty alright, first game was 145 to 104. second game was 152 to 110, third game was 174 to 89. fourth game was 181 to 99. WHAT THE HELL CAN. after second game den third alr -.- all the balls i threw, not focused, got sideways. all that crap lar! & didnt have strength already. & on the other hand. some stupid idiot going up up & up. BAH.

was supposed to destress, but i was under alot of stress actually. LOL.



oh well. back to dinner :)

i had, steak & chicken combo. AS USUAL. dad had fire steak, it had brandy on it. lols! mom had jack's special & ryan had mix grill.

rayna had... MINUTE STEAK kids meal lar :D

everything was mini, so damn mini. even the orange juice -.-" ohwell.

bill came up to a total of 117bux. AHAHA, only dad will pay. LOL!












oh man, there's work tomorrow. supposed to be off & go in island to help zayra with stuffs. but, i think i might go in earlier ba :) bag gonna be heavy tmr. clothes to change, laptop. OH MAN.

alright, think it's a long enough post. sorry t bore you guys :D

toodles! :D

life's simple.

when you make decisions, dont look back.

uhhuh...

i'm so bored at home.

the haze is back again. stupid wind.

im getting shit from my mom. saying that im avoiding church. i told you straight in the face. i dont want to go anymore which part of that dont you understand? & i dont work on sunday purposely. -.-

i can choose not to work on sundays. but its still the same i dont wanna go to church anymore. i can sleep at home if i dont go to work what. so? makes no difference. work is not the factor.

granny's gone for around 7 months already. & i've been attending church half heartedly for 7 months. oh well. time flew by damn quickly.

mom's saying that i make her a big sinner. cause she changed church and shit.

apparently, she's going to church for nothing. she just doesnt get the fact that God plans everything, and whatever happens is because he made it that way.

so, God made her change church. then i tagged along cause i dont wanna be alone. so? it's not mom's fault

& i dont wanna go to church just to make her happy. defeats the purpose no?

she's just gonna go on and on and on and on about this. still, my main point is i'm not interested, i'm not going back. i can go, but my mind's not there. i wont be listening/concentrating. defeats all the purpose. USELESS.

period.

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i hate doing this. i hate arguing with my mom. I HATE IT. but she's really. ARGH i cannot stand it anymore..

seriously think my life wld be better hanging out on the streets.

i give you respect as my mom. but on one hand, u're screaming at me for SHIT FUCK LIKE CHURCH. and on the other hand u're asking me to do housework for you.

i wish sometimes u'll stop controlling me like i'm still in my secondary school days. cant do no shit but stay home and look at the four walls.

& when im home, i've got nothing better to do, i hog the comp & there you are screaming at me.

i cant go out and play, i cant surf, i cant sleep, i cant watch the tv.

i cant do ANYTHING at all.

i've got enough of this shit.

apparently, when i'm with kervin, u find fault with me with EVERYTHING. now? not with him also come find fault.

what the fuck do you want?!

this sucks. big time.

[ /edit ]

school.

i absolutely loathe? abhor? hate? going to school lar :(

i think i spend too much time counting how many hours of work = how much money i'm gonna get..

now, i spend MORE time at school, but realising that i dont get any money. WAHHAHA.

rayna's gonna say "JIEJIE MONEY FACE"

but really.. sigh so sad please.

first day of school, got whatever briefing & prize presentation (?!?!) at 5, when we finish school at 4. WHY?!?!

third day of school, there's meet the mentor session at 5, when i finish school at 3. WTF?!

& IS lessons, i dread IS. dread, hate, will kill over it. at least first week's IS is up to 12 only :) YIPPEE. & i'm free after that. wahhaha!

sigh, why cant school start late & end early? i dont wanna wake up at 730. :(

but at least, there are no lessons ending at 5pm -.- peak hour for buses, I HATE. lessons end latest 4, earliest 12! :D

i shall stop whining & live up to my fate.

mom's threatened to change the lock. so friends, if one day i come knocking at your door. u'll know why. HAHAHA. i had better be good this few days.

tmr's rayna's actual birthday :) 7yearold kiddo!


alrighty.

toodles.

weird.

hahahaha, im weird :)

i slept for like a good 12 hours, but me, being the lazy bones is still lazy. especially after sleeping so long.

when i dont have enough sleep, my nose runs badly to tell me that i've got not enough sleep & i'm gonna fall sick soon.

but now, i've got more then enough sleep. my nose's still running. telling me that i've got too much sleep?

bah!

ohwell.

i wonder shall i cut my nails or shld i wait till i can poke someone till he/she bleeds before i cut. HAHAHAHA.

toodles.

retainers.

MY DAMN RETAINERS ARE HURTING ME.

its binding my teeth so tightly.. i dont know why, but somehow it's damn weird.

wait a min, did i forget t brush my teeth last night? i did what.

and if i did, how come my retainers are so tight today?!

now its hurting me like shit. it's gonna feel damn good if i take it out. BUT NO I CANT. something's wrong with the retainers.

& i'm being lazy. i dont brush the retainers. HAHAHA. i just wash it. OH MAN DISGUSTING.

but whatever, try brushing two sets of teeth, for like 1 year. :) and also, for the rest of your life.

not forgetting going thru the endless modules/metals in your mouth for 2and half years. :) trained tongue to get rid of food that's stuck in between.

HAHAHAHA.


whatever.

toodles.

PS. the rantings of a ... girl that has only had 4 hours of sleep, for the past 24hours.

exhaustion

i'm dying from exhaustion. it IS that bad.

slept at 330, woke up at 730. around 4 hours?

and tahan until now.

i slept in the bus to work - THE WHOLE DAMN JOURNEY. it's pretty rare.

i slept in the cab home. - rare.

i slept in the car - out & back home. normal.

& now, my eyelids are shutting while i'm typing away.

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work was pretty alright today. frank dropped by NZkiosk. damnit! lucky i was wellbehaved. greeted & everything. he's happy that the fridge is CLEAN.

director of F&B, drop in just to check if the fridge is CLEAN. great!

& everybody at skybar was suddenly SOOOO hardworking. until i didnt even realise yena came in. LOL.

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dinner at AV. & i realised. dad spent 91bux on tzechar ytd at teckwhye. WTF?! with just normal dishes.

hahahaha, and today's meal is less den 50. & its SO MUCH NICER.

maybe i'm too tired, i just didnt really have appetite for anything.

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oh yes, the crowd at harbour is.. undescribeable. taxi queue was like freaking longgggggg. everywhere's crowded. road's jam even the sentosa bus takes so long to come out. bridge is pack. OH MAN...

its just vivo city, it's not SINGAPORE SALES.

ohwell.. singaporeans.

but i wanna go take a look :D

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ohwell :) i shall go watch long hu men or smthng lar.

toodles.



ps. i dont usually use the word shag. cause it's wrong usuage. but now. i'm damn shag.

BITCHHH

life's a BITCH for today :)

no other days can be as suay as today lar.

willingly went back t work cause fucktard was on recall. FINE LOR.

kicked my leg against the stupid swing door. -.- and now it's hurting like i dont know how to describe.

was supposed to do closing, FINE. countd money & realise damn loads of extra.. forgot to add the float in. so, keyed in items to get the correct amount. HAHAHA, damn suay.

end up disturbing mich & franco. had to void SO many items.

nevermind. went to cool deck. step down the van only kenna from giri & franco. franco not bad leh. its the giri. ask me "where are you from?" wtf man! i'm from my mom's womb.

i hate him lar! ARGH. but nevermind :) i aint working for a while alr.

IM DAMN HUNGRY NOW PLEASE. only had half a bowl of maggi mee for dinner -.-"

waited until they finished work. which was around 1. & franco didnt wanna send me out. -.-" only send the three bikers out. & i had to share cab home with two nosey & noisy parkers. ARGH!!!

& great news. i've to be awake in another 4 hours. :)

HAHAHAHA


lifes a bitch.

im damn hungry.

cathay.

i realised, 1T02 LOVESSS cathay.

cathay is our movie house.

cathay & watch movie are linked together.

whoever suggest "lets go watch movie" the next person will suggest "cathay"

so now, vivocity is open. & ryan wished it was cathay but no, it's GV.

maybe when school reopens & our hangout area will change.

instead of the normal "TOWN" & taking 174 down. it'll become. "VIVOCITY" & taking 61 down instead.


HAHAHAHHA. new hang out area for new school semester.

so how mates? :x my suggestion good hor? :D

CARS

i'm living my own dream man. can't even afford my own license & i'm drooling over the cars that i want - the high end ones.

i dont need a lambo nor a ferrari. :) just a pretty honda integra would do. HAHAHAHA.

i guess it'll cost around 90k the most to get it from authorised dealers.

i dont mind a second hand car. HAHA. but it's actually. around the same price.




integra type R. damn freaking hottttt. asking price is? 70k. LOL.




the normal integra. looks kinda dull arh. all blackish. HAHAHA. i've been in this integra craze for like AGESSSSS. lol. it's hot. can't blame me :D




hahahah! super hot also, but i'm never gonna be able to afford this shit. SLK200. :D 152,800 bux.



BMW 320 CIA. 146800 bux.

OH MANN..




okay, i shall quit dreaming :) RX-8 & integra :) WOOOO!

sis's bday party later. a bunch of 7 year old kids. and what am i gonna do there? NOTHING. so many i shall bring my laptop & surf. :)


toodles.

hazeyhaze.

i hate the haze please. it didnt happen last year did it? i dont remember getting this kinda shit while i was sitting for my O lvls.

& because of the haze, im choking. it's even worst then the ciggs & the smoke coming out from ciggs doesnt make it better.

have t switch on the air con, and now my blankie is wrapped all around me. like im some kinda popiah. rachel the popiah. its so damn cold lar.

my mom just came in to threaten me. she said she'll kill me if i sleep too late.

oh man, i hate the haze. get it away :( please let it rain!

i spent a bomb on my sis's present. a jigsaw puzzle, a kids worship cd.

oh well. she's the princess ma :)

oh man.. im so tired. i nidda sleep.

wont be bloggin much alr lar. too many stuffs that i prefer to keep to myself. thoughts, decisions.

as usual, rachel keeps everything to herself & blows up in the end.

toodles :)

muddle head.

im the biggest muddle head ever!!!!

ytd i went out.. happy happy..

and i forgot to buy the MOST important thing.

princess rayna's birthday present for her party tomorrow.

today den i realise -.-" WTH MAN.

tomorrow is rayna day. HAHAHAHA. :)

toodles!

im getting dizzy man..

piano.

now, sitting infront of the piano without having to move around is tough. i cant even finish playing A song. that's bad no? i get so fidgity & suddenly lose concentration

tadah, there goes everything :)

i guess i wasted quite alot of my time on piano. its the 3mins hotness thing. but tried to hold on. heh, left it at grade 6. piano? a long time later..

now, the pianist at home is? my lil sis :D



the only reason why my piano is still there. is because i cant bear for it to be gone. :)






i love my mom & dad man! look at the difference! 19 years ago & now. HAHAHA :p so cool.

oh well. dad's still at meeting, i wonder what time will he be back. grr!

hungry hungry. BAH. sis is sick at the wrong time.HAHAHA.




HURHUR. my lil sis is so CUTEEEE. korea - when she just woke up from her beauty sleep. 14 months old then. OOOOO :p

toodles :)

cramps.

i'm having this kinda weird cramps.

no, not menstual cramps. far more worst then that. i think i scared my sis a lil cause i was whining in pain on the floor.

its like someone stabbed me and pulled my guts apart. its this intense central pulling in my abdomen.

agh. but oh well :)) its alright now. i dont know what's causing the pain.

im so tired :( got woken up at 7am, cause my mom was looking for the DVDs to return to my aunt. GREAT. i went back to sleep & got woken up at 740am. by an sms from SOMEONE from the previous church. SHIT.

i got woken up EARLY IN THE MORNING. cause a memory verse sms came in. OH MY GOODNESS.

pissed.

oh well. going out later, sis's sick. so i'm watching shaggy dog with her now. gonna wait for dad t come home before gng out.


toodles.

on a lighter note..

IM RICH. got my pay alr.

shall go shopping tomorrow! make myself happy abit.

buy some stuffs for my lil sis who's sick & rents. (:

oh well. :D

got pretty purple nails now :) a darker shade. close t black



weeee. :)



i try. to be happy.

tough choice.

22nd september 2006

i made a wrong choice. i didn't pick up your calls & got you so worried. fine, you didnt talk to me for a day.

24th september 2006

i did not tell you my whereabouts again. got you pissed off & had you scolding me with all the profanities. ignored me for 2 whole days.

-

over the week, the common topic & spark to our quarrels was that two days.

3rd october 2006

you promised to change, you promised me to treat me better. i had lost most of my feelings already. i just couldn't continue.


4th october 2006.

i made a tough choice today. i made up my mind that we cant go on anymore. i did not want to make use of you - or even make you think that way. im happy enough to know that you'll change for me. to give me a better life.. you know me, you know that it'll take me a long time to trust again. everytime you lifted me up, you dropped me down again. time and time again it happened.
until now.. i really didnt wanna risk having my broken heart broken again. i decided to step out. i'm really sorry for all the hope that i've been giving you.

i hate to see you drowning your sorrows with alcohol. you wanna do that, i can do that too. i hate to hear you telling me things that are gonna make me give in to you again. i hate it.

i just hope we can accept it. i have to learn. i had to be harsh.

i'm sorry.

it has come to an end.

i love you.

tough night

i hate a rough time last night. lost & confused.

oh well. my eyes are hurting.

chiong drama all the way last night. LOL. stupid drama. damn funny please.

fantasy hotel. ohwell.



i bought cookies for ryan ytd, & bought da vinci code for myself to read again. nothing better to do lar! :) ohwell. pay gonna come in tonight. YEEHAA! :)

tomorrow going down to simlim :)

need to refurbish my laptop. get a cleaning kit to clean up. maybe drop by dad's friend shop to see if i can get anything. i'm a noob in simlim man.

shall talk to dad tonight :)

alright.. i've been slacking for two days. (: slept till 1plus today. now im cleaning up the house abit. cleared up my table a lil.

granny went to the hospital ytd :( she felt pain in her stomach. oh man, i hope she'll be fine. & she's coming over to stay for a few days cause aunt is gng to philippines :)

ohwell.

toodles :)

stupid thunder woke me up early in the morning. & it started raining super heavily.. & now.. everywhere's damn smoky.

i need to go down to jurong point. gonna splurge on cookies for my beloved cousins & brother. all of them gonna have exams soon.


i really give up trying. ups & downs. yes. every life has this shit going on. but im sorry, i really give up.

im eager to blame, but slow to admit.

i live in self denial. & i did something that i promised not to do again.


i really dont know what to do. i try to make things better but things never seem to get better.

so what if im trying? you're still far away.


i hate myself. period

alright lorrrr.

its a longggggg day.

and the stupid cramps made it even longerrrrrr.

but anyhow.. im so tired. 5 days off. what am i gonna do man?

gotta head down to simlim to get my laptop stuffs. den maybe walk around? i wanna watch john tucker must die & rob-b-hood. maybe i'll catch them alone. :)

& urh, pay's coming in. :) YABADABADOOOO.

dad's not home from work yet. weird! its 12am alr.

okay, i need to sleep.


tagline, OKAY LOR

i learnt that from ryan man.

now i need to change.

alright lor

HAHAHAHAHA


toodles :)

ps.


my "P" button on my lappie just flew out. wtf?!

monthly killer pains.

im so dead lar.

i think the monthly killer pains are coming. & i've to work today.

thank god for 4 freaking off days in a row.

PLEASE. DONT. COME. TODAY.

killer pains = rachel crying & whining like a bed ridden baby.

& considering the fact that i'm drinking teh o peng, sprite, mountain dew at LARGE amounts everyday. i think im gonna be SO SO DEAD.

save me please.

my eye lids are.. trying hard not to shut.
my nose is running like a tap.

rachel is sick.


toodles.

girls & boys..

does the color of the school uniform look.. FAMILIAR?

HELL YES. so does the collar pin..

wait a min.

that looks like MY school uniform leh.


hahahah, unity unity unity. (: nice work kiddos! managed to make unity FAMOUS again no? shall i be nice & create some havoc? but wait.. it's already on STOMP. lol! so it doesn't really make a difference right? :)

P ah P (P is the nickname for the principal) you're in deep shit :)

-

i read something on the newspaper, quoted by the MP of dunno where lar. SHE said that because students dont work for their living, it can be hard for them to understand that cash has to be earned.

i guess, i cant consider myself as a student. cause i'm earning my own keep.


goood....

ohwhatever. im damn tired


1stoctober : HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY.


& i clocked 12 freaking hours on my punch card today.

rachel is great :)


TOODLES.