reluctancy.

i suddenly feel reluctant to return to school.

i feel so foreign, feels like i'm back to what i was 6months ago. starting school in a whole new BIG HUGE environment. of course, my consolation are the very, good friends i made durings this short span of time :)

going to school alone tomorrow makes me feel kinda weird, like i'm so not used to walking to the oh-so-far interchange, and taking the bus with tons of people going to the same destination - ngeeannpoly. i just feel so weird & lost. i wished my friends could take the same bus with me :( & we'll make loads of noise on the bus, that would lighten up the mood alot.

anyhow, today marks the end of my 2 month working stint. i left with mix feelings, both happiness & sadness.

overall, it's sadness. lol. it was fun working in sentosa & i've not regretted going for this job. i always thought that i'm an office person, apparently, i've proved myself wrong during this 2 months.

i've made friends/"enemies" while working. & of course, my very good friends still stands by to pick me up when i fall. i'll miss the crap we all have after work, sitting inside the store. & when i'm waiting for the mates, loitering around with derek. i'm gonna miss zayra & joseph. i'm gonna miss the ICE CREAM SCOOP :D



consolation i have? the mates are still around.

i wish life would be that pleasant, having people i know everywhere i go, or having them go with me :) but no, life's not that pleasant. & i'm already bombarded with meeting new friends & MAKING new friends at the age of 17 for every new semester, i swear it's gonna kill me sooner or later. i LOATHE opening up all over again.

very well, hope my exposure in sentosa will.. allow me to muster up some courage. i hope, wish & pray. lol.

it's time to hit the sack, i'll be up & running in 7 hours time. horrible, but then again, my blog would be much more active from tomorrow onwards.

what do you expect me to do? :) i've a laptop, internet connection, perfect ambience with the lecturer droning on & on. brain juice starts flowing - although for the wrong thing.

& yes, how do i get from harbourfront to orchard, by private transport? instead of going on bigggg round to clementi & down holland?


goodnight world, i wish everyday was like today. simple & good.

:)