i'm so bored at home.

the haze is back again. stupid wind.

im getting shit from my mom. saying that im avoiding church. i told you straight in the face. i dont want to go anymore which part of that dont you understand? & i dont work on sunday purposely. -.-

i can choose not to work on sundays. but its still the same i dont wanna go to church anymore. i can sleep at home if i dont go to work what. so? makes no difference. work is not the factor.

granny's gone for around 7 months already. & i've been attending church half heartedly for 7 months. oh well. time flew by damn quickly.

mom's saying that i make her a big sinner. cause she changed church and shit.

apparently, she's going to church for nothing. she just doesnt get the fact that God plans everything, and whatever happens is because he made it that way.

so, God made her change church. then i tagged along cause i dont wanna be alone. so? it's not mom's fault

& i dont wanna go to church just to make her happy. defeats the purpose no?

she's just gonna go on and on and on and on about this. still, my main point is i'm not interested, i'm not going back. i can go, but my mind's not there. i wont be listening/concentrating. defeats all the purpose. USELESS.

period.

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i hate doing this. i hate arguing with my mom. I HATE IT. but she's really. ARGH i cannot stand it anymore..

seriously think my life wld be better hanging out on the streets.

i give you respect as my mom. but on one hand, u're screaming at me for SHIT FUCK LIKE CHURCH. and on the other hand u're asking me to do housework for you.

i wish sometimes u'll stop controlling me like i'm still in my secondary school days. cant do no shit but stay home and look at the four walls.

& when im home, i've got nothing better to do, i hog the comp & there you are screaming at me.

i cant go out and play, i cant surf, i cant sleep, i cant watch the tv.

i cant do ANYTHING at all.

i've got enough of this shit.

apparently, when i'm with kervin, u find fault with me with EVERYTHING. now? not with him also come find fault.

what the fuck do you want?!

this sucks. big time.

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