tough choice.

22nd september 2006

i made a wrong choice. i didn't pick up your calls & got you so worried. fine, you didnt talk to me for a day.

24th september 2006

i did not tell you my whereabouts again. got you pissed off & had you scolding me with all the profanities. ignored me for 2 whole days.

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over the week, the common topic & spark to our quarrels was that two days.

3rd october 2006

you promised to change, you promised me to treat me better. i had lost most of my feelings already. i just couldn't continue.


4th october 2006.

i made a tough choice today. i made up my mind that we cant go on anymore. i did not want to make use of you - or even make you think that way. im happy enough to know that you'll change for me. to give me a better life.. you know me, you know that it'll take me a long time to trust again. everytime you lifted me up, you dropped me down again. time and time again it happened.
until now.. i really didnt wanna risk having my broken heart broken again. i decided to step out. i'm really sorry for all the hope that i've been giving you.

i hate to see you drowning your sorrows with alcohol. you wanna do that, i can do that too. i hate to hear you telling me things that are gonna make me give in to you again. i hate it.

i just hope we can accept it. i have to learn. i had to be harsh.

i'm sorry.

it has come to an end.

i love you.