reluctancy.

i suddenly feel reluctant to return to school.

i feel so foreign, feels like i'm back to what i was 6months ago. starting school in a whole new BIG HUGE environment. of course, my consolation are the very, good friends i made durings this short span of time :)

going to school alone tomorrow makes me feel kinda weird, like i'm so not used to walking to the oh-so-far interchange, and taking the bus with tons of people going to the same destination - ngeeannpoly. i just feel so weird & lost. i wished my friends could take the same bus with me :( & we'll make loads of noise on the bus, that would lighten up the mood alot.

anyhow, today marks the end of my 2 month working stint. i left with mix feelings, both happiness & sadness.

overall, it's sadness. lol. it was fun working in sentosa & i've not regretted going for this job. i always thought that i'm an office person, apparently, i've proved myself wrong during this 2 months.

i've made friends/"enemies" while working. & of course, my very good friends still stands by to pick me up when i fall. i'll miss the crap we all have after work, sitting inside the store. & when i'm waiting for the mates, loitering around with derek. i'm gonna miss zayra & joseph. i'm gonna miss the ICE CREAM SCOOP :D



consolation i have? the mates are still around.

i wish life would be that pleasant, having people i know everywhere i go, or having them go with me :) but no, life's not that pleasant. & i'm already bombarded with meeting new friends & MAKING new friends at the age of 17 for every new semester, i swear it's gonna kill me sooner or later. i LOATHE opening up all over again.

very well, hope my exposure in sentosa will.. allow me to muster up some courage. i hope, wish & pray. lol.

it's time to hit the sack, i'll be up & running in 7 hours time. horrible, but then again, my blog would be much more active from tomorrow onwards.

what do you expect me to do? :) i've a laptop, internet connection, perfect ambience with the lecturer droning on & on. brain juice starts flowing - although for the wrong thing.

& yes, how do i get from harbourfront to orchard, by private transport? instead of going on bigggg round to clementi & down holland?


goodnight world, i wish everyday was like today. simple & good.

:)

If your heart's not in it - Westlife.

HAHAHAHA :D freaking nice song pls. thanks kervin. HAHAHA :D

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days was alright. shall blog in points. freaking lazy :D

work started alright, without spoons/cups & wedges.
cleared up alot of mess & ice cream. left with five cartons sucks.
some group of people came & collected ice cream.
left with 3 half cartons :D
slacked all the way.
happy birthday zayra. :)
went t vivo, stupid cinema so many people.
went t cathay, burnt bits of my leg, kenna th exhaust. 
i'll remember alvin forever -.-
had yoshinoya for dinner, first time? i guess.
watched WTC. almost froze to death inside.
stupid lame draggy show. your love kept me alive. HAHAHA.
came home. & tadah, conference up till now.

i nidda bath &
 all of us still cant accept the fact that we're going to school tomorrow.
gotta be in school by 815, meeting the mates.
how the hell i'm gonna wake up, i've got noooo idea :)
but anyhow. dress code, anyhow whack alr! LOL.

oh wells. :)
i dont think i can sleep at 12 alr,
talking too much crap with them. LOL! :)

so how was ur day today? rate it 1 to 7.
mine's 7! i'm crazy :D

okay, ryan is lame. :)))


breakfast tomorrow shall be.. no idea :)

there's no scar. PHEW. hahahaha

hmmmm. alrights :D

toodles. :D


PS. comment whoever is reading. LOL! :)
denise, thankyou! love ya very much :DD
we shall show our faces in unity & tanglin soon uhhh. :D

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I'm missing you
Girlboy even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
It's the last thing that I wanna hear

Chorus:
But if your heart's not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girlboy. I'll make it easy for you

Chorus:
If your hearts not in it, for real
Please dont try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
There's nothing I can do
To stop from losing you
I can't make you change your mind
If your heart's not in it

Chorus:
If your hearts not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

Stuck - stacie orrico.

I can’t get out of bed today or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way to leave the love behind
I ain't tripping, I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean

You kept me hanging from a string, why you make me cry?
I tried to give you everything, but you just gave me lies
I ain't tripping, I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean yeah

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
And say you want me back, but you never do
I feel like such a fool, there’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you

I can’t take it, what am I waiting for?
My heart's still breaking, I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it, the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you

Now, love's a broken record that’s been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday, why we gots to play these games we play?
I ain't tripping, I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean yeah

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
And say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool

I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My heart's still breaking, I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it, the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinkin’ of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you

I am stuck on yoooou
yoooooou
oooooooooo

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
And say you want me back, but you never do
I feel like such a fool, there’s nothing I can do,
I’m such a fool for you

I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My heart's still breaking, I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it, the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
I don’t know what to do
I’m stuck on you


uhhuh, sucha right song for me. hor yena? i'm stuck on you.

saaaaaturday.

something is wrong with this stupid new template shit lar! whatever, they just keep telling me there's an error, but i cant seem to find the error after long excessive readings of the code. BLAH. screwing my eyes up. whatever.

i counted my chickens too early, i might now be gng to sydney afterall. unless i've got enough cash to pay for my air tickets :) anyone?

dad's selfish lar! he dont wanna pay for my tix. AHHH!! :( selfish :(

i realised i blog wrongly. i saw a dodge viper tomorrowyesterday. LOL.

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went to CSC just now. dad went to register for some social dance class. & us? we went to bowl for half an hour there was some stupid tournament going on. so we.. had to go.

i wont ever bowl at CSC again, EVER! unless i've got my own ball. the holes are so small & the holes are oily. i kept on losing grip. half my throws went down the drain. wtf pls. ended up with only 69pts. DAMN GREAT.and i broke a nail. -.- i'm thinking of picking it up as a hobbby leh. but nobody's gonna fund me.

so as usual, i always eat alot when i'm out with my family. all they think about is eating, eating and eating. lol! had this rather pathetic & lousy blackpepper chicken shred sandwich. ended up eating chicken wings @ the cafe next to the pool.

went down to science center to watch the stupid omnimax thing. BORING. was dozing away. i dont know what's with me dozing off in movies nowadays.

went to IMM to walk around & bot potato chips. WAHHAHA. wanted to eat some big meal or smthng :x but ended up at kopitiam :( failed attempt to make dad spend money! but i had ang zhao chicken mee sua. DAMN SHIOKK. but, not better then mom's cooking lar.

oh well. :) nothing much alr. i dont know what to do with the blogskin. damn scrwd.


i want fundings to sydney :(

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i just cant stop screwing things up. sometimes i dont do it on purpose, but it just comes out that way. oh man.


laters.

MESSED UP!

firstly, my blog is in a huge mess! :) i realised that my friends are all lazy buggers who dont like to click on the COMMENT link t comment. hello lazy buggers!! :D & in the midst of changing my blogskin, i realised i didn't save the LAST blogskin :) so now i'm searching for a new one to edit & change. my links are all gone! so i've to slowly, painstakingly type in the long excessive codes of links :) HAHAHA.

secondly, i think i've never seen a good friend of mine, throwing in all her efforts to get my out of this pile of shit. she'll risk her life to eliminate whoever that's hurting me. EHEM, so dont try hor :)

thirdly, DENISE TAN LI LOO if you're seeing this, i havent talked to you for a long time, MSN ME PLEASE when you're free. we've got tons to talk about & erh, yea this might sound sudden. do you even read?!?! :D

fourthly, i've got a new gate at home :) random but the drillings & stuff woke me up from my sleep.

fifthly? HAHAHAHA, school is starting in TWO days. :(

sixthly, i'm proud to say i've two shameless friends. :)

seventhly, my sis is ignoring me! :( punishment for not being home for so many days?!

eightly, i saw a dodge viper tomorrow. super pretty pls :))))

okay, i copied yena's blogging method for her last post. :D

lastly,

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i'm going to sydney end of december! :DDDDDD

lalalala, i'm a happy girl! :) envy me pls :D





i cant think of anything to blog already. oh well. mom's got new dvds. time t chiong again :) after i'm done clearing up the mess. :D


laters!

chill out.

chill out day with the mates.

put yena, lizhen, shawn, ryan & i together. all you get is utter loads of crap & pouring troubles session.

we dont really need a place to chill, put us in a coffeeshop with kopi/teh/soyabean/greentea/barley & we'll sit & talk like nobodies business.

so we walked from MS, to fullerton, to boat quay (going one big huge round) to clarke quay. settling down in the middle for dinner break @ BurgerKing coffeeshop.

as usual, sat & chatted about the class, always. it's always the class. always forever is the class. & talked about clubbing - not ready yet pls :) wanted t grab a bacardi from 7-11 but no cash. spoiler!

we chatted at mccafe also. over matters of the heart. it really sucks.

yena dared me, to wear a long skirt out (the bohe kind) & she'll roll on the floor for a good half an hour. NO PROB MAN :) i'll do it! watch & see.

& shawn dared us. to dress as TWITS with pink hair & he'll run along orchard NAKED or until he gets caught by the police.

moral of th story, dont dare us man!

:) i had fun. loads of fun!

we found actors it's actually a pub for anyone to jam. its a pretty nice place to chill :) one day we'll pop by after school.

yena & lizhen are damn funny pls :) they used all sorts of method to hail a cab for me to get home. so damn hilarious. & they didnt realise that there were people opposite. hahaha! i love them :) & nothings gonna come in between.


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i hate clement chong. LOL. he's filthy rich & showing off his ASSETS and shit! I HATE YOU. ahhahaha.

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i came up with a theory while i was bathing. yea, i have too much on my mind that i think even when i bath.

love is bittersweet.

you wanna love, but yet, sometimes it makes you so frustrated you wanna hate.

hate always overcomes love. sweetness can never overcome bitterness, never, ever.

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now, i feel like doing just one thing. throwing everything aside and be alone. i hate this thing going on man.

i hate to be made use of. geddit?


whatever.

xoxo,
rachel

proven.

i think i can pretty dumb at times.

sony ericsson phones make you confirm twice the receipient of the msg before sending it out.

i always curse & swear when people dont reply my msges.

& the other thing that will make me curse and swear is that...

i realise i havent send out the msg & stupidly waiting for reply - cursing & swearing at the person. HAHAHAHA. how dumb pls :X


thats me. huge dumbo :)

im hungry. gastric attacking! blaaa.

i hate mosquitos.

sentosa is MOSQUITO heaven man. i think they shld drop some kinda insect repellant bomb on the whole island. get rid of all the irritating mosquitos. BAHH!!

my whole leg is filled with mosquito bites. bah! hate it.

i forgot to mention, linges gave me a soft toy ytd :D hahaha! he said he would bring something up. but he always! forget. ytd he went into cable car station & came out with a soft toy, a dog which is a hp holder (my sentence construction is wrong but heck!)

:D i've nice colleagues.

sentosa is the best place to work without the mozzies it'll be the GREATEST. the people there are super friendly - cause they have to be friendly. & therefore working experience BEST! :D

gotta go get ready soon :) i'm so tired! slept at 2plus, woke up at 10plus & chiong housework :D now i'm free t go out!

countdown : 3more days t school reopen

that sucks.

but i guess my blog entries would be more interesting when school starts :D loads of crap to talk about, as usual.

gotta open up my eyes, be more observant - catch the stupid people doing stupid things, & make just for laughs on rachel's blog.





load of crap.


laters :)

DRUNK.

LIME MAGARITA ROCKS. :)))))

but then again, too strong for me lar! & the lime taste very strong, makes it quite bitter.

but then, thanks seph! :)

& slacked at store after work, waiting for the others to come back. derek opened the cigar in the drawer & we smoked cigar!

it's quite alright, dont know how to describe it. afterall, it's the first time i'm "smoking" but didnt really swallow the smoke, just wanted the taste. taste HOT, burning. i dunno why. swallowed abit of smoke & coughed. derek laughed -.- wtf.

uhh. i know its not a great thing to smoke, but no. i'm not getting hooked on. i'm not gonna smoke. at least for now lar.

got really big reactions from people when they knew. yea i know. rachel always goes "dont smoke lar. bad for health." or daring people not to smoke. i wont. :)

long day tomorrow.

oh well.. i dont know if i'm ready to meet up. but then, :)


hahahahaha. interesting day today.

toodles :)

i'm dreading work.

gotta leave soon :( sigh. no idea who to replace me. so dont even bother looking lar!

had nicenice lunch, nasi lemak from yew tee :)

oh well.. taking the bus is a chore. suddenly feels damn long.. hahahaha, a fly home rides & i'm not used t it alr. wtf?!

i desperately need a car. license.. whatever that can make me fly home. ahhahaha

whatever. i'm crazy :)

toodles.

it's 2am.

i'm watching a new hk show. under the canopy of love. DAMN FUNNY.

but i'm super tired. gonna K.O anytime. but its good. lie down & sleep. dont have t think abt anything at all.

i think the situation sucks. yena's right. KILL the root of the problem. yena, i leave the job t you yea, watergun for you? :X

i'm beginning to build up hatred.

i want fried rice with alot alot of fishcake & hotdogs. who can cook for me?!

another half an hour & i can go t bed.

RANDOM

oh fuck shit. HAHAHAHA. i just deleted the WHOLE CHUNK of things i blogged. i can't be madder den a mad cow now pls. i'm already boiling inside & my stupidness just caused it to boil more. HOW GREATTT.

but anyhow, i dont wanna rant anymore :) i just feel like shit cause i'm always going back to work on last minute basis & always happens to be on my off days. or either that, i'm made to work fullshift cause some people are irresponsible.

have some responsibility please.

ohwell. i'm drained, super tired. :(

sometimes i really wish that i'll have nothing to think about at all. a blank mind instead of a full mind. a full mind & a full day doing things cause me to be damn tired.

but anyhow! :)

had free coffeebean drinks & cheesecakes! the new drink, hazelnut was damn nice :) zayra was soooooo jealous, in the end i got a cup for her :D cheesecake give derek, he dont wan. alvin ate it in the end.

zayra's birthday is coming :D she's damn nice! so she'll get a nice nice birthday present from me & yena.

i hope tomorrow i go to work, the place WONT be in a mess. else i'll faint. on the spot. & there will be things to keep me busy for 4 hours.

i wonder how much my next pay's gonna be. hmmmm.

i cant wait to get my driving license :( soon soon, a few more months. OH MAN.

i so hate january babies. LOL.




ohwell. i'm being so random :)



hazelnut! :) damn nice & shiok. go try it man, no regrets! & dont bother about me, i'm just being spastic.


xoxo,

rachel. :)

im stuck in another dimension. nowhere here & nowhere there.

walking foward will cause me to knock into the rather oblivious wall that i KNOW is already there.

walking backward would only.. fall backwards into a bottomless pit that i've been living in for 2 years already.

sometimes its tough, being stuck in another dimension. oh well. whatever mannnnnn. wahahahha.


its an idiotic situation. bahbah

im sitting at skybarr.. slacking on the chair. laughing with yena. WAHAHAHHA.

i've got two huge ass big mosquito bites side by side on my ankle area, and one abit higher. wth?! its damn painful lar. waitamin, mosquito bites painful?! i think i scratch too much. LOL

& its gonna rain, how am i gonna go to work?! oh man! & i'm pretty lazy t bring my lappie :p but tomorrow zayra's off. den got no chance to help her alr :( oh welll.. but so ma fan lar if it rains :(

i'm having muscle aches. so weakkkkk. muscle aches from 4 games. HAHAHA, i suck man :(

& i realise esther havent bowl with meee. since my birthday. complain nails so long dont wanna play. ehem, aunty when u gonna play with me?!?! when all ur nails break? hahahaha :D

i miss ong, seng & asyraf lar! funniest ass around. i wonder how they're doing with their.. wings. :D all of them have gone MIA. nv even tag my board already. ehem, excuse me gentlemen.

oh well. gotta go get ready for work. BORINGGGGG. why must it rainnnn! :(

byebye sentimentals. r&b i'm coming backkk.


toodles. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYNA

so today's her actual birth date. ahh, 7 years old already. time flies by super quickly :( awww, i miss her being small, chubby & carriable. LOL. now she's so LONGGG i cant carry her & she's heavy -.-

but anyhow, i am glad i did rush back for dinner :) had jacks place! i'm being stuffed with good food nowadays. & thankgod mom didnt continue ranting.. phewww.

but anyhow, before that. went for a short game of bowling @ cdans. destress abit huh. feel like i'm being driven to a corner. sigh, things i do just to.. get u away. geddit? not purposely, but i dont wanna hang on anymore. make decisions & never regret. i aint.

did pretty alright, first game was 145 to 104. second game was 152 to 110, third game was 174 to 89. fourth game was 181 to 99. WHAT THE HELL CAN. after second game den third alr -.- all the balls i threw, not focused, got sideways. all that crap lar! & didnt have strength already. & on the other hand. some stupid idiot going up up & up. BAH.

was supposed to destress, but i was under alot of stress actually. LOL.



oh well. back to dinner :)

i had, steak & chicken combo. AS USUAL. dad had fire steak, it had brandy on it. lols! mom had jack's special & ryan had mix grill.

rayna had... MINUTE STEAK kids meal lar :D

everything was mini, so damn mini. even the orange juice -.-" ohwell.

bill came up to a total of 117bux. AHAHA, only dad will pay. LOL!












oh man, there's work tomorrow. supposed to be off & go in island to help zayra with stuffs. but, i think i might go in earlier ba :) bag gonna be heavy tmr. clothes to change, laptop. OH MAN.

alright, think it's a long enough post. sorry t bore you guys :D

toodles! :D

life's simple.

when you make decisions, dont look back.

uhhuh...

i'm so bored at home.

the haze is back again. stupid wind.

im getting shit from my mom. saying that im avoiding church. i told you straight in the face. i dont want to go anymore which part of that dont you understand? & i dont work on sunday purposely. -.-

i can choose not to work on sundays. but its still the same i dont wanna go to church anymore. i can sleep at home if i dont go to work what. so? makes no difference. work is not the factor.

granny's gone for around 7 months already. & i've been attending church half heartedly for 7 months. oh well. time flew by damn quickly.

mom's saying that i make her a big sinner. cause she changed church and shit.

apparently, she's going to church for nothing. she just doesnt get the fact that God plans everything, and whatever happens is because he made it that way.

so, God made her change church. then i tagged along cause i dont wanna be alone. so? it's not mom's fault

& i dont wanna go to church just to make her happy. defeats the purpose no?

she's just gonna go on and on and on and on about this. still, my main point is i'm not interested, i'm not going back. i can go, but my mind's not there. i wont be listening/concentrating. defeats all the purpose. USELESS.

period.

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i hate doing this. i hate arguing with my mom. I HATE IT. but she's really. ARGH i cannot stand it anymore..

seriously think my life wld be better hanging out on the streets.

i give you respect as my mom. but on one hand, u're screaming at me for SHIT FUCK LIKE CHURCH. and on the other hand u're asking me to do housework for you.

i wish sometimes u'll stop controlling me like i'm still in my secondary school days. cant do no shit but stay home and look at the four walls.

& when im home, i've got nothing better to do, i hog the comp & there you are screaming at me.

i cant go out and play, i cant surf, i cant sleep, i cant watch the tv.

i cant do ANYTHING at all.

i've got enough of this shit.

apparently, when i'm with kervin, u find fault with me with EVERYTHING. now? not with him also come find fault.

what the fuck do you want?!

this sucks. big time.

[ /edit ]

school.

i absolutely loathe? abhor? hate? going to school lar :(

i think i spend too much time counting how many hours of work = how much money i'm gonna get..

now, i spend MORE time at school, but realising that i dont get any money. WAHHAHA.

rayna's gonna say "JIEJIE MONEY FACE"

but really.. sigh so sad please.

first day of school, got whatever briefing & prize presentation (?!?!) at 5, when we finish school at 4. WHY?!?!

third day of school, there's meet the mentor session at 5, when i finish school at 3. WTF?!

& IS lessons, i dread IS. dread, hate, will kill over it. at least first week's IS is up to 12 only :) YIPPEE. & i'm free after that. wahhaha!

sigh, why cant school start late & end early? i dont wanna wake up at 730. :(

but at least, there are no lessons ending at 5pm -.- peak hour for buses, I HATE. lessons end latest 4, earliest 12! :D

i shall stop whining & live up to my fate.

mom's threatened to change the lock. so friends, if one day i come knocking at your door. u'll know why. HAHAHA. i had better be good this few days.

tmr's rayna's actual birthday :) 7yearold kiddo!


alrighty.

toodles.

weird.

hahahaha, im weird :)

i slept for like a good 12 hours, but me, being the lazy bones is still lazy. especially after sleeping so long.

when i dont have enough sleep, my nose runs badly to tell me that i've got not enough sleep & i'm gonna fall sick soon.

but now, i've got more then enough sleep. my nose's still running. telling me that i've got too much sleep?

bah!

ohwell.

i wonder shall i cut my nails or shld i wait till i can poke someone till he/she bleeds before i cut. HAHAHAHA.

toodles.

retainers.

MY DAMN RETAINERS ARE HURTING ME.

its binding my teeth so tightly.. i dont know why, but somehow it's damn weird.

wait a min, did i forget t brush my teeth last night? i did what.

and if i did, how come my retainers are so tight today?!

now its hurting me like shit. it's gonna feel damn good if i take it out. BUT NO I CANT. something's wrong with the retainers.

& i'm being lazy. i dont brush the retainers. HAHAHA. i just wash it. OH MAN DISGUSTING.

but whatever, try brushing two sets of teeth, for like 1 year. :) and also, for the rest of your life.

not forgetting going thru the endless modules/metals in your mouth for 2and half years. :) trained tongue to get rid of food that's stuck in between.

HAHAHAHA.


whatever.

toodles.

PS. the rantings of a ... girl that has only had 4 hours of sleep, for the past 24hours.

exhaustion

i'm dying from exhaustion. it IS that bad.

slept at 330, woke up at 730. around 4 hours?

and tahan until now.

i slept in the bus to work - THE WHOLE DAMN JOURNEY. it's pretty rare.

i slept in the cab home. - rare.

i slept in the car - out & back home. normal.

& now, my eyelids are shutting while i'm typing away.

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work was pretty alright today. frank dropped by NZkiosk. damnit! lucky i was wellbehaved. greeted & everything. he's happy that the fridge is CLEAN.

director of F&B, drop in just to check if the fridge is CLEAN. great!

& everybody at skybar was suddenly SOOOO hardworking. until i didnt even realise yena came in. LOL.

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dinner at AV. & i realised. dad spent 91bux on tzechar ytd at teckwhye. WTF?! with just normal dishes.

hahahaha, and today's meal is less den 50. & its SO MUCH NICER.

maybe i'm too tired, i just didnt really have appetite for anything.

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oh yes, the crowd at harbour is.. undescribeable. taxi queue was like freaking longgggggg. everywhere's crowded. road's jam even the sentosa bus takes so long to come out. bridge is pack. OH MAN...

its just vivo city, it's not SINGAPORE SALES.

ohwell.. singaporeans.

but i wanna go take a look :D

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ohwell :) i shall go watch long hu men or smthng lar.

toodles.



ps. i dont usually use the word shag. cause it's wrong usuage. but now. i'm damn shag.

BITCHHH

life's a BITCH for today :)

no other days can be as suay as today lar.

willingly went back t work cause fucktard was on recall. FINE LOR.

kicked my leg against the stupid swing door. -.- and now it's hurting like i dont know how to describe.

was supposed to do closing, FINE. countd money & realise damn loads of extra.. forgot to add the float in. so, keyed in items to get the correct amount. HAHAHA, damn suay.

end up disturbing mich & franco. had to void SO many items.

nevermind. went to cool deck. step down the van only kenna from giri & franco. franco not bad leh. its the giri. ask me "where are you from?" wtf man! i'm from my mom's womb.

i hate him lar! ARGH. but nevermind :) i aint working for a while alr.

IM DAMN HUNGRY NOW PLEASE. only had half a bowl of maggi mee for dinner -.-"

waited until they finished work. which was around 1. & franco didnt wanna send me out. -.-" only send the three bikers out. & i had to share cab home with two nosey & noisy parkers. ARGH!!!

& great news. i've to be awake in another 4 hours. :)

HAHAHAHA


lifes a bitch.

im damn hungry.

cathay.

i realised, 1T02 LOVESSS cathay.

cathay is our movie house.

cathay & watch movie are linked together.

whoever suggest "lets go watch movie" the next person will suggest "cathay"

so now, vivocity is open. & ryan wished it was cathay but no, it's GV.

maybe when school reopens & our hangout area will change.

instead of the normal "TOWN" & taking 174 down. it'll become. "VIVOCITY" & taking 61 down instead.


HAHAHAHHA. new hang out area for new school semester.

so how mates? :x my suggestion good hor? :D

CARS

i'm living my own dream man. can't even afford my own license & i'm drooling over the cars that i want - the high end ones.

i dont need a lambo nor a ferrari. :) just a pretty honda integra would do. HAHAHAHA.

i guess it'll cost around 90k the most to get it from authorised dealers.

i dont mind a second hand car. HAHA. but it's actually. around the same price.




integra type R. damn freaking hottttt. asking price is? 70k. LOL.




the normal integra. looks kinda dull arh. all blackish. HAHAHA. i've been in this integra craze for like AGESSSSS. lol. it's hot. can't blame me :D




hahahah! super hot also, but i'm never gonna be able to afford this shit. SLK200. :D 152,800 bux.



BMW 320 CIA. 146800 bux.

OH MANN..




okay, i shall quit dreaming :) RX-8 & integra :) WOOOO!

sis's bday party later. a bunch of 7 year old kids. and what am i gonna do there? NOTHING. so many i shall bring my laptop & surf. :)


toodles.

hazeyhaze.

i hate the haze please. it didnt happen last year did it? i dont remember getting this kinda shit while i was sitting for my O lvls.

& because of the haze, im choking. it's even worst then the ciggs & the smoke coming out from ciggs doesnt make it better.

have t switch on the air con, and now my blankie is wrapped all around me. like im some kinda popiah. rachel the popiah. its so damn cold lar.

my mom just came in to threaten me. she said she'll kill me if i sleep too late.

oh man, i hate the haze. get it away :( please let it rain!

i spent a bomb on my sis's present. a jigsaw puzzle, a kids worship cd.

oh well. she's the princess ma :)

oh man.. im so tired. i nidda sleep.

wont be bloggin much alr lar. too many stuffs that i prefer to keep to myself. thoughts, decisions.

as usual, rachel keeps everything to herself & blows up in the end.

toodles :)

muddle head.

im the biggest muddle head ever!!!!

ytd i went out.. happy happy..

and i forgot to buy the MOST important thing.

princess rayna's birthday present for her party tomorrow.

today den i realise -.-" WTH MAN.

tomorrow is rayna day. HAHAHAHA. :)

toodles!

im getting dizzy man..

piano.

now, sitting infront of the piano without having to move around is tough. i cant even finish playing A song. that's bad no? i get so fidgity & suddenly lose concentration

tadah, there goes everything :)

i guess i wasted quite alot of my time on piano. its the 3mins hotness thing. but tried to hold on. heh, left it at grade 6. piano? a long time later..

now, the pianist at home is? my lil sis :D



the only reason why my piano is still there. is because i cant bear for it to be gone. :)






i love my mom & dad man! look at the difference! 19 years ago & now. HAHAHA :p so cool.

oh well. dad's still at meeting, i wonder what time will he be back. grr!

hungry hungry. BAH. sis is sick at the wrong time.HAHAHA.




HURHUR. my lil sis is so CUTEEEE. korea - when she just woke up from her beauty sleep. 14 months old then. OOOOO :p

toodles :)

cramps.

i'm having this kinda weird cramps.

no, not menstual cramps. far more worst then that. i think i scared my sis a lil cause i was whining in pain on the floor.

its like someone stabbed me and pulled my guts apart. its this intense central pulling in my abdomen.

agh. but oh well :)) its alright now. i dont know what's causing the pain.

im so tired :( got woken up at 7am, cause my mom was looking for the DVDs to return to my aunt. GREAT. i went back to sleep & got woken up at 740am. by an sms from SOMEONE from the previous church. SHIT.

i got woken up EARLY IN THE MORNING. cause a memory verse sms came in. OH MY GOODNESS.

pissed.

oh well. going out later, sis's sick. so i'm watching shaggy dog with her now. gonna wait for dad t come home before gng out.


toodles.

on a lighter note..

IM RICH. got my pay alr.

shall go shopping tomorrow! make myself happy abit.

buy some stuffs for my lil sis who's sick & rents. (:

oh well. :D

got pretty purple nails now :) a darker shade. close t black



weeee. :)



i try. to be happy.

tough choice.

22nd september 2006

i made a wrong choice. i didn't pick up your calls & got you so worried. fine, you didnt talk to me for a day.

24th september 2006

i did not tell you my whereabouts again. got you pissed off & had you scolding me with all the profanities. ignored me for 2 whole days.

-

over the week, the common topic & spark to our quarrels was that two days.

3rd october 2006

you promised to change, you promised me to treat me better. i had lost most of my feelings already. i just couldn't continue.


4th october 2006.

i made a tough choice today. i made up my mind that we cant go on anymore. i did not want to make use of you - or even make you think that way. im happy enough to know that you'll change for me. to give me a better life.. you know me, you know that it'll take me a long time to trust again. everytime you lifted me up, you dropped me down again. time and time again it happened.
until now.. i really didnt wanna risk having my broken heart broken again. i decided to step out. i'm really sorry for all the hope that i've been giving you.

i hate to see you drowning your sorrows with alcohol. you wanna do that, i can do that too. i hate to hear you telling me things that are gonna make me give in to you again. i hate it.

i just hope we can accept it. i have to learn. i had to be harsh.

i'm sorry.

it has come to an end.

i love you.

tough night

i hate a rough time last night. lost & confused.

oh well. my eyes are hurting.

chiong drama all the way last night. LOL. stupid drama. damn funny please.

fantasy hotel. ohwell.



i bought cookies for ryan ytd, & bought da vinci code for myself to read again. nothing better to do lar! :) ohwell. pay gonna come in tonight. YEEHAA! :)

tomorrow going down to simlim :)

need to refurbish my laptop. get a cleaning kit to clean up. maybe drop by dad's friend shop to see if i can get anything. i'm a noob in simlim man.

shall talk to dad tonight :)

alright.. i've been slacking for two days. (: slept till 1plus today. now im cleaning up the house abit. cleared up my table a lil.

granny went to the hospital ytd :( she felt pain in her stomach. oh man, i hope she'll be fine. & she's coming over to stay for a few days cause aunt is gng to philippines :)

ohwell.

toodles :)

stupid thunder woke me up early in the morning. & it started raining super heavily.. & now.. everywhere's damn smoky.

i need to go down to jurong point. gonna splurge on cookies for my beloved cousins & brother. all of them gonna have exams soon.


i really give up trying. ups & downs. yes. every life has this shit going on. but im sorry, i really give up.

im eager to blame, but slow to admit.

i live in self denial. & i did something that i promised not to do again.


i really dont know what to do. i try to make things better but things never seem to get better.

so what if im trying? you're still far away.


i hate myself. period

alright lorrrr.

its a longggggg day.

and the stupid cramps made it even longerrrrrr.

but anyhow.. im so tired. 5 days off. what am i gonna do man?

gotta head down to simlim to get my laptop stuffs. den maybe walk around? i wanna watch john tucker must die & rob-b-hood. maybe i'll catch them alone. :)

& urh, pay's coming in. :) YABADABADOOOO.

dad's not home from work yet. weird! its 12am alr.

okay, i need to sleep.


tagline, OKAY LOR

i learnt that from ryan man.

now i need to change.

alright lor

HAHAHAHAHA


toodles :)

ps.


my "P" button on my lappie just flew out. wtf?!

monthly killer pains.

im so dead lar.

i think the monthly killer pains are coming. & i've to work today.

thank god for 4 freaking off days in a row.

PLEASE. DONT. COME. TODAY.

killer pains = rachel crying & whining like a bed ridden baby.

& considering the fact that i'm drinking teh o peng, sprite, mountain dew at LARGE amounts everyday. i think im gonna be SO SO DEAD.

save me please.

my eye lids are.. trying hard not to shut.
my nose is running like a tap.

rachel is sick.


toodles.

girls & boys..

does the color of the school uniform look.. FAMILIAR?

HELL YES. so does the collar pin..

wait a min.

that looks like MY school uniform leh.


hahahah, unity unity unity. (: nice work kiddos! managed to make unity FAMOUS again no? shall i be nice & create some havoc? but wait.. it's already on STOMP. lol! so it doesn't really make a difference right? :)

P ah P (P is the nickname for the principal) you're in deep shit :)

-

i read something on the newspaper, quoted by the MP of dunno where lar. SHE said that because students dont work for their living, it can be hard for them to understand that cash has to be earned.

i guess, i cant consider myself as a student. cause i'm earning my own keep.


goood....

ohwhatever. im damn tired


1stoctober : HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY.


& i clocked 12 freaking hours on my punch card today.

rachel is great :)


TOODLES.

gleeeeeeee.

i didnt know whether it was a good thing or bad thing when michelle msged me to go straight to skybar because yena's sick & there's no one there.

and i decided. THANK YOU YENA FOR FALLING SICK. i hope you fall sick everytime that i'm supposed to work with max. THANKYOU THANKYOU :p really.. i love you man! HAHAHA :p

it's mich's birthday today :) she's nice after awhile.

-

i swear i hate I*s!! they're kanchiong spiders & kiasu people who dont even know how to apologize after breaking stuffs! what the hell man! to hell with you people. oh wait, i know some good ones :) the minority. like my colleagues @ skybar. lol. joseph has taken me as part of his staff. COOL MAN.

im so reluctant to serve them, but i have no choice right?! they're the customers. one idiot still try this & that already den in the end?! say come back later - OPPPPPS. where did he go?! MIA.

nehneh!

ohwell.. i've ranted enough. tomorrow morning shift. yenadey are you well enough? if you aren't dont force urself hor!

& i've got FOUR freaking off days next week?! what the hell? i'll go into island one of the days - to lie to myself that im actually working. lol! & great.. i just deleted ALLL my msges including my schedule that mich texted to me. how blur & sotong can i get? not as sotong as zhenny. LOL.

freaking tired & hungry. mom went for supper lar! what pigs & didnt jio me.

alrighty. gotta go :)

TOODLES! :D

happy girl (:

for a moment, i thought blogger didnt like me since im always jumping around the host & experimenting newer & fresher BLOGGING grounds.

ahaha they didn't let me sign in -.-

im using the beta version, so they asked for my google account pwd & username. fine, i gave them that. but another blog account of mine showed up. nehneh!

oh man, i think i'll be going to work early. shall drop by skybar to visit yena! :) see i love her so much! HAHA :P den drop by cool deck to ka jiao people :D one hour shld be enough lar hor. :D

oh well. i decided t look on the brighter side. maybe working with max & iffa wont be that tough. ahhh... rachel learning to yi shi tong ren :)

i need to shit badly. breakfast this morning was hmm, as good as no breakfast. tasteless prawn noodle with soya bean that tasted like diluted HL milk. HORRIGIBLE.


i promise myself that this month, i'll spend in moderation - EVEN THO PAY IS COMING IN SOON :) but still. MODERATION! & i've run out of shorts to wear. im always wearing FBTs everywhere i go. LOL! that spells shopping, but in moderation :D

alright, shall go calculate how much pay im gonna get ! :D


love you people!

toodles

PS. rachel's mood is bright & sunny even though the sky's cloudy... hmm. which is good actually. then i wont be lazy to greet people :) CHEERIOS TO GOOD SERVICE :D

cheated

so my mom did not treat me to tzechar. WTH?!

& i didnt go for dinner with my friends cause i wanted tzechar. now my billybombers voucher is USELESS. sigh :( but ohwell..

i changed my blogskin. theme - black&white. pretty obvious right?

-

and imposters, if you wanna pose as someone, please understand the person first yea? (: dont be so dumb lar! dun even know who you are posing. hopeless dude.

i guess the mates must be having hell of a time outside lar! sigh :( so unfair!

im so sleepy i feel like sleeping. didnt nap in the afternoon. maybe i should go lie down awhile & might be waking up early for breakfast with my mom.

i wonder why are there so many freaking ants in my house. =.= dustbin also got ants. WTF. cant even throw things into the dustbin - for fear of attractin ants. so what's the use of the dustbin?! useless lar!

ohwell. whatever. :) someone tell me, how am i going to pass thru time tomorrow. i cant read, i cant play games. and for goodness sake! i've to stand for 8 straight hours. OMGG. so evil so evil :(

toodles!

HAHAHA

i just changed my blog to the beta blog. just trying out lar! im a sucker for new things. LOL!

shall explore a lil bit around :)


mom's gonna treat me to tzechar! :P

TOODLES!

V for vendetta

im watching V for Vendetta now.

the show is weird. i dont understand what V's talking about AT ALL.volition, violation. blabla.

remember remember
the 5th of november.

pretty cool show, but i still dun understand the show lar! it's all politics.

-

i blogged a long entry just now. but blogger SCREWED UP ON ME! hell no! there goes my blog entry :( but oh well.

im placing my trust & hope back on. i hope things will work out well :)

-

oh well. full shift tomorrow :( oh man! sighhh. i feel like changing sihfts with yena.

im gonna wear a mask like V. hiding behind a mask is so cool! with long long hair :D he's always smiling lar! i want that kinda mask. so that no one will know that im sad :( and i'll always be HAPPY HAPPY! :)

-

i got nothing to blog about. biut i SO LOVE MY NEW SOFA :))) its damn comfy! weeheheh!! :)


toodles :)

apparently, rachel is so CHOR LOR that even her phone with a handphone pouch still ends up with so many scratches.

& worst, it was drenched with TEH o PENG ytd. HAHAHA! how great?!

at first my screen got foggy den it disappeared -.-" my scroll button didnt work PROPERLY. i press it down, but it goes to the text message short cut.

but after knocking a few times de button went into the correct place :X LOL!!

i wanna change a phone :( i just blew 90 bucks on my handphone bill. OH MANNN.

-

i've decided to take the chance. its tough to really let go. rachel has never been able to do that ): but i guess it's a good thing. :)

thanks nana & zhenny. hmm, im chelchel? LOL!

-

i wanna go eat billy bombers, but nana is sleeping, zhenny just woke up! LOL what the hell lar!

mom's bringing granny & cousins to the moon cake festival thingy tmr. they're gonna have good food & i cant go!! :(( cause i've to suffer at work with some low down people.

oh man, i must be yi shi tong ren. else derek's gonna nag again. LOL. derek's like GOD please, he knows all our gossips. unless, there's someone telling on us lar. hor alvin, hor xianbin?


im considering whether to work after school starts. ohwell..


toodles :)

sanity.

it really makes a difference when im sane & in-sane.

when im sane, everything - even small lil things that pokes me, it'll hurt. and i'll whine all day about that SMALL TINY CUT.

when im insane, i make deep cuts on myself. HAHAHA

thats the sane & insane rachel.

nope, im not vying for attention thru this lil space, you can jolly well leave if you're unhappy about anything..

& imposer, it's not the right time to do ur work now. so just quit being US. i know we're that great. but fuck it just get lost.

-

i wonder how hard isit to work with someone you HATE to the core & not forgetting the fact that they call me his sistaaaaaa. fuck it lar! im no sistaaaaa of his. i dont even wanna be!

this kinda low life creature. OH MAN. i'll save the details.

so dead please, how to survive 6 hours with iffa & 5 hours with max?

im so pissed now i need to sleep while nursing the very hmm, major? cuts on the relationship.

i need a clear head to know where im gonna go.

& im craving for chicky wings. ohman. so hungry.

sanity.

it really makes a difference when im sane & in-sane.

when im sane, everything - even small lil things that pokes me, it'll hurt. and i'll whine all day about that SMALL TINY CUT.

when im insane, i make deep cuts on myself. HAHAHA

thats the sane & insane rachel.

nope, im not vying for attention thru this lil space, you can jolly well leave if you're unhappy about anything..

& imposer, it's not the right time to do ur work now. so just quit being US. i know we're that great. but fuck it just get lost.

-

i wonder how hard isit to work with someone you HATE to the core & not forgetting the fact that they call me his sistaaaaaa. fuck it lar! im no sistaaaaa of his. i dont even wanna be!

this kinda low life creature. OH MAN. i'll save the details.

so dead please, how to survive 6 hours with iffa & 5 hours with max?

im so pissed now i need to sleep while nursing the very hmm, major? cuts on the relationship.

i need a clear head to know where im gonna go.

& im craving for chicky wings. ohman. so hungry.

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there's something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking

Chorus
Baby, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe

Livin' without you, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain

I wish I can tell you that I'm feeling better everyday
that I didn't hurt when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking

Baby, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
Livin' without you, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain

Baby, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
Livin' without you, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain

Baby, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
Livin' without you, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice

i suddenly dont feel like going to work tomorrow.

i suddenly dont feel like doing anything at all.

i suddenly..

suddenly..

fell down & out.

i've stepped out of something. that i've always holded on to & placed all my hopes on.

i hoped that you would change for the better. gone.

i hoped that you'll pick me from work. gone.

i hoped that we can meet up often. gone.

i hoped that you would take the initiative to do things. gone.

i hoped for so many things. now its all gone.

it isnt easy to be strong. especially when its a fake strong front.

i bought something home today. something that i vowed never to touch again. something that was thrown into the dustbin time & time & again. i wonder if i will use it.

goodbye my lover,
goodbye my friend,
you've been the one.
you've been the one for me.

rachel, stop crying.

28 October 2004 - 27 September 2006.


im alright. expected this.

my bad.

i have lost all emotions & feelings. how am i even supposed to feel now?

[edit]

i dont see why i have to explain anymore when anything i say, you wont believe. so why bother repeating myself over & over again.

i've done enough. i've changed enough. you just made me stop loving you. i dont understand how you can not talk to me for so many days. it also obviously shows that you dont care - and can do without me.

i've lost all emotions. if you think i dont feel sad, think again.

because of you, i didnt get enough sleep - i cant get to sleep. i slept at 2 woke up at 9, waking up every hour. you think that's nice? its not nice at all.

end of topic.

[/edit]

i want a job that will bring me to every beautiful country in the world.

states, france, UK, aussie.

but i dont wanna be on business trips - that i wont be able to enjoy the stay there.

the only job available? pilots OR air stewardess, stewards.

their job is on the plane, and after that they are free to roam and enjoy. its damn nice :( i wish.

i wish

i wish

i wish.


cold war gng on. sucks please.

bye.

absentminded-ness.

work"stress"

physically/mentally drained.

most importantly.

drifting away from my loved ones. my family & you*

pretty sucky. but. i dont know lar.

my bad.

schedule next week not bad (: happy - cause i'm going back to NZN :( but waitamin, my skybar "condo" is done up pretty nicely. i dont mind staying up there :)

toodles.

life's unfair. and i hate the way he plays with my life.

hello, its not like i havent shown enough dis-interest in you already. why do you still have to bother about me?! WHY? havent you had enough fun screwing my life up? no?

STOP MEDDLING WITH MY LIFE. so what if you can see me. so what if you can control my life. just stop lar.

but then again, maybe im the one to blame. always.

im the one that always piss people off. no? im the one who makes mom cry everytime we quarrel. im the one that makes rayna wail out loud everytime he (bro) & i quarrel. im the one that pissed you* off cause i didnt call you.


just when i said my life's not in the dumbs YET. my life fell straight down. all the way.

THANKS. whoever is cursing me.

sometimes i thank GOD for work, so that i dont have to go to church. what an irony.

i live a life of hate.

RANDOM.

when im bored..

and i've got nothing to do at home..

i succumb to eating, eating & eating...

mooncake, cheddar chips.

at this rate, im gonna balloon damn quickly. i cant wait to go to work. i woke up a tad early by the incessant ringing of my phone.

fuyohhhhhh. 15linked messages from my mom at one time. wth right?! just talking about ytd's issue. but whatever lar!!

im pissed off still. mom made us shake hands to have "peace" at home. yes, on the surface, beneath? i'm never gonna speak to him again. i rather rant to a dog - at least a dog wont talk back to me OR argue with me, better still. the dog would listen.

oh man, im watching kids central at home :( nothing else to watch la!

gng lunch with my baby :D happy! i haven't felt much in a dumps lately, but then again. i dont wanna be in the dumps.

i dont know what im blogging, its just SOOO random :( im bored, cant blame me right?


shall scout for blogskins.

laziness + boredom = HAHAHAHAHA.

TOODLES!

i just got scared by my dad. after brushing my teeth.

i wanna have long straight hair! :( my hairs kinda wavy now at the bottom & sticking out like broom cause of the curve at my shoulders. but the top is coming out straight and nice.

WOO! i love it.

thinkin whether i shld rebond it anot. rebond = straight long, dead hair.

now = partly straight, alive hair. AHHAHA

if there's such things like dead & alive hair :D

kinship

what is kinship?

family relatoinships? i dont see good family relationships in my family.

no doubt, my friends know that family is above all. i will rush home for dinner most of the days. but something i hate coming back to?

the irritating pest at home. aka, my brother.

so what if he is my brother? i just hate his attitude and what nots. the way he talks back.

oh yea, its 2 more weeks to PSLE but hello? what is he doing now? SLACKING. coming home to watch tv, play games, and claim that its unreasonable cause he has done alot of stuff in student care.

he refuses to do assesments given by my parents. HELLO, i was pushed so much during my PSLE days. and he? slacking all th way.

the reason? mommy & daddy says that my intellect level is higher, so i dont need to study so much. MY FOOT PLEASE.

i have got a gangster to be growing up under my parents care. the people i hate the most. gangsters.

im sure of this. he is gonna ruin the whole family, traumatise my younger sis. the only reason why i try not to argue so much is because of my lil sis. i dont want her to wail and cry cause she is afraid.

i hate my brother.

im sucha pathetic girl :(

im always at home on off days. cept for monday cause my mates were not working too.

the next time im going in to sentosa. :( im not gonna stay at home! feeling bored & sleepy.. after a heavey maggi mee with sausage & ham lunch. *BURP.

just finished watching cloud 9. it's bout a strippers turn volleyball players. damn hilarious.

now, my eye lids are shutting. i need to sleep

and edit photos. HAHAHA!


im so full.

toodles :D

PISSED

i've got alot of things to blog about.

but i just received my hp bill.

88bux. WTF MAN! & i kenna cheated by SINGTEL. 1000sms free right, 500 to public, 500 to SINGTEL USERS ONLY. if i had known, i wouldn't have change. how the hell i know who's a singtel user. HUH HUH HUH?!

oh man. pissed!

BYE!

I HAD FUN TODAY..

& i hate people who look for me only when they're upset. BLAH.

& i hate spider people. BLAHHH.

but i had fun :)

love nana & zhenny! :D

blog hopped to this blog.. actually yena shld noe it lar... its actually her friend.

altho i had a tough time reading it.. cause of the twit language lorzx. i still find that.. not bad leh. a couple, happy tgt.. altho so twitish larhsx. but then again, they are happy.. my feelings when i read it? HAIYO. HONEY MOON PERIOD. ONE MONTH LATER SURE QUARREL LIKE SIAO!

todae we promise each other tat we wun tok about our past animore. n will stop quarrel sho often.

OMG....

dear, i also want honeymoon period leh.. can anot? :(

i also want to be pampered.
i also wanna walk down orchard hand in hand laughing at stupid things.
i also wanna have nice meals with you
i also wanna take neos not the twitish kind with you.
i also wanna go shopping with you.
i also wanna meet you.
i also want you to send me home.
i also want you to give me surprises..


can anot? :(

its been a long time coming.

God save me.


IM SO FREAKING TIRED. despite the fact that i slept around 10+ WHY?!

and im hungry. prolly go get some breakfast before going into the overpriced island.

im drained. nose is running, WHY! :( im gonna look so groggy later..

but on a happier note. gonna see granny later. WOOOWEE! :)

TOODLES

LOOK! :DD i PASSED EVERYTHING

GPA is 3.

DAMN IM OVER THE MOON! :D

give me treats please :D ima happy girl. LALALAL!



YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYy.

bye, gotta work :D

ANTM 6

KUDOS TO YOUTUBE! :))

i've been missing out alot on ANTM cause of the late mon nights & tiredness - to even remember there's ANTM.

today's off day. im bored. & decided to surf youtube. something that came to mind. ANTM 6! & now im watching the reruns. tho it's pretty muched cut up.. but anyhow! im enjoying it.. i dont know which episodes come first tho. i'll just watch & watch lar!

something to keep me occupied. i wished i had chips now :( im darn hungry. i nidda do some shopping soon! :) clothes! :D

i think both my mates are BUSTED alr right?! big hole in the pocket alr. hahaha! i see them everyday. :D im glad that we've nt drifted cause of the hols!

& mag, i hope you're having it cool at work.

ITS A RAINY DAY! :D

TOODLES :D

ANTM rocks.

power pack girls :D

YENA & RACHIE :D

the next time any of you go to sentosa. take note of the route that the blue line bus takes from BEACH STATION to IMBIAH LOOKOUT. take note..

brought maggie in today. :) first day of work for her. damn shiok man. first day of work got van come fetch us in. & got no idea why the stupid idiotic max walk so fast. in the end got van fetch us down. DAMN XIA SUAYYYY to be attached to max. SUPER. XIA. SUAY. & mag, u must talk to him one, else he wont talk to you.

hahaha, so we dropped lizhen den went to cool deck. do opening for xb. we're damn nice please. :D ytd do closing, today do opening. & YEA YEA, my punch card for ytd was 11 to 9 instead of 11 to 8. just because i pulled some shutters & moved some chairs. WEE! :D

we helped xb move the mineral water into the store somemore lar! & we got free limited edition coke bottles. pretty pretty! thanks XB! :D

we rented a bike with 20% staff discount & free bottle of ice mountain - and good bikes. for 3 hours ( with 1 hour free ). good right? :D so it's 12 bux for 4 freaking hours. my ass hurt alot. 3 bux per hour. WOOO!

see, staff ma. :D

so we cycled up to look for lizhen. ITS THE MOST TORTURING TIME EVER PLEASE. but we had fun laughing & making a fool out of ourselves, WITH EVERYONE STARING AT US.

& my lips were burning. no idea why. so i just put ice all over my lips. & derek saw, and he was like stop doing dat please. so ugly. HAHAHA. but it's burning. & he kept on shooting yena. yena bu zhi liang li. wanna drive the van. :D so he said u can step the accelerator, cannot see the front. HAHAHAHAHAHHA :X laugh like mad!

we cycled back to cool deck, SLACK MAN! just keep on pressing brake. & XB helped us carried our bikes down th stairs. i admit, we're kukus! :D

den went to koufu to have lunch :D shun bian check in on mag. suffering huh? nevermind, it'll be over soon :D

saw shuyu so she got staff discount for my noodles! :D WEEE! no lizhen, im not calling you. :D

sat awhile & slack. brought yena to tanjong beach and clear her perception of the beach being dirty. it's so much nicer & prettier den siloso & palawan. hor hor hor? :D

went back & slack at cool deck. yena de pig ate XB's staff lunch. and that XB? got good food dun wanna eat, make us go buy maggi mee for him. go die man! lol.

had fun today :) went back to stall to find derek. say wanna play luge, in the end also nv! eng eng seng seng sit there shake leg. make me go collect my name tag. SO NOW I'VE MY NAME TAG.

no more ALVINA for me :D weeee!! :D and derek damn lazy please! always ask us go back stall zz. but bo bian, he supervisor ma.. big big not like us small small. :D

:D

working has been good. i've got free coasters, one whole stack, limited edition coke bottles :) & of course. ice cream! and food. WEEE! :D

toodles i need the rest - work hasn't been giving me that.

PS : dad says that i can go to australia :) with the money i've saved up for myself during my work phase. YES! den i can get to see MISS SMILEY! :D free lodging leh! :) miss my cuzzie, xiao qing korkor & niece! :D

:) skybar rules has been changed!

franco called their manager & say them. HAHAHA! :D wee!

now i can drink water, :) & also.. we're under the comfortable shade.... :D not afraid of RAIN & SUN! best - ice cream wont melt! YEEEHAAA! :)

went t cooldeck t find xb while waiting for yena. den lizhen came. & franco called and say he was coming down to fetch us to VAC ( visitors arrival center ) why not man! so waited for xb to do closing, den franco send us to NZ, to pick max, den send us to stall.. to settle our punch cards & also schedule & mag's schedule.

den the CLUMSY XB drove us out to VAC. & took a bus out where we met the WHOLE group of SKYBAR people. hahaha! damn funny please.

xb has proven himself to be a CLUMSY driver.. lizhen almost flew when he drove. & franco's labeled the DANGEROUS driver. HA.

now im home. im going to bed :) thanks to pascale, im working 11 to 4 tmr instead of 11 to 8. WEE!

maggie starting work on wed :) even tho off day, shall go in with her. AND YENA, lets go cycling & stuff. TOUR SENTOSA! :DDD

alright. gotta sleep.

TOODLES! :D

september 11. quick! 1 min of silence.

































steamboat ytd was good (: as usual. i was the last-one-cooking-so-that-no-oil-will-splash-on-me thing :X HAHA!!

had fun. smelt like barbeque-d human. gotta head to work soon. IM SO TIRED PLEASE :(

& i think the mates are intending to stay in sentosa tdy? so i had better bring extra clothes JUST IN CASE they wanna sit at skybar.

i cant do so with my stupid new zealand shirt on.

i hate th rules at skybar

im gettin a bad tummyache. wth! :(

TOODLES!

i cant wait to go back to NZ. :(

family time

i enjoy family time ALOT :)

just came home from supper with my family :D FATTENING LAR! my dad, sudden urge of supper. went to bukit timah hawker center :) had satay.. damn fattening.

joke of th day: THERE. THAT ONE LOR!!

my adorable sis :) pretending to know.. when she doesnt. HAHA.

steamboat dinner tmr with grandpa! WOOHOO! :D

TOODLES!

ps: something's wrong with my eyes :( gotta head to bed soon. morning shift tmr. :( THE THING ABOUT WORKING SHIFTS...

9th of september 2006

2 more days to September 11th. dunno which anni alr.
6 more days to September 15th results day :/
10 more days to September 19th PAYDAY!!!! :D

okay. toodles :p

work schedule next week SUCKS PLEASE

wed & thurs off again. good or bad leh? tuesday FULL DAY. sat & sun working.

why tio this kinda schedule one?! i want weekend free also leh.

BLA!!

for money. SIGH.

today's the 8th. 11 more days to pay day. :)

my ring

DEAR AH. I WANT MY RING BACK!! :((

it feels so weird without it on my index finger.

HURRY HURRY!! meet me up & pass it back to me. else im gonna retrive it myself.

loveyaaaa. :)

HAPPY GIRL :))))))



work tomorrow.

SUCKS!! :(

KPO

really KPO huh. so KPO that you dont know what's happening yet u wanna comment :)) HAHA!

so do you know that ever since i am able to do housework. i've been helping her do housework WHEN IM FREE?

since say, sec 2? every week on wednesdays i'll do housework for her cause that's the only day im free from school?

so after i go to poly. things changed & i cant do housework for her. but i still help her out occasionally?

so now im working. on off days i help her do housework do you know?

OH MAN. who's the bloody ignorant KID now? :)))

stop commenting when you dont even know what i have DONE. cause i always blog about the NEGATIVE thing's the are happening. :)

i complain here in the WORLD WIDE WEB for everybody to listen :) and sorry to say :) my mom's been nice. my dad too. im grateful for them.


AND I LOVE THEM :)



each household has it's own problems and this problem about my mom nagging and not being happy at everything is the problem in my house.

but i love my family. and their FIRST in my life :)

stop being KPO when you dont have to, and even if you want to be KPO - comment on the correct thing LAH!

ignorant kids.

i swear i HATE ignorant kids. kids who dont spare a thought for people's feelings.

for a moment XX says on behalf that you were my friend once bla bla bla. and the other moment? call all the dance people. maybe we should leave the BETRAYER out.

are you dumb or dumb? or has CSS method of teaching impacted you so much that you DO NOT KNOW that difference between good & bad. or rather, knowing how to comment correctly? ohwaitamin, i think schools dont teach you such stuff right?

for an outsiders view. i think XX is the betrayer. she's probably the one SOWING DISCORD. between SQ & CH.

on one hand, she's saying on behalf that you were my friend to SQ. & on the hand, telling CH that we shld leave the betrayer out.

FUCK YOU HO.

look who's talking. look who's the betrayer. how the hell do you define a betrayer anyway?

a betrayer. in my terms is someone who tells on you. & not someone who has succesfully taken away something that is yours - its your bad that you couldn't keep it. no? my cuzzie has th charms. go wail to your mama.

look up the dictionary about the word BETRAYER before you use it.


i was ignorant. but hello... not to this extend.

KIDS.

CHILD LABOUR

my mom's making use of me lar! i work so many days already. cant even rest a few days and go out and have my own fun meh?

wednesday & thursday off right? clean the whole house.

WTF?!?!

i hate you. ARGH.

& the stupid bloody bluetooth is taking damn bloody long to send my stuff over lar. WTF.

YUCKS.

bye.

i love my cuzzies. even tho we seldom meet up.

i guess we went thru alot? we weren't that close. until we grew up and started going to secondary school. hell loads to talk about - including parents.

& uh uh. it's wrong to offend me OR my friends. and it pretty much applies to my cuzzies as well :)

i dont really know what's going on in your lives cuzzies. but if you're reading this :) chill & relax. they're just trying t make you angry & lalala, the only thing that you can get back at them is. NOT TO GET ANGRY :) thus they fail, tryin to make you angry.

i so love my beloved cuzzies. all gonna have exams soon & here i am SLACKING AWAY :D wahaha!

& ehem, everyone knows how a friendship-turn-sour can be :)

it pretty much sucks. & dear lil cuzzie. can pretty much see that u've grown stronger emotionally huh! no more the cry baby i know :D lets go KOREA :D i'm gonna dig out korea pictures we took. wooo! :) thats like AGES ago man.. say, 6 years alr! :D

i love my family lar! :D

TOODLES.

WORKKK

sucks.

NOTE TO SELF : REMEMBER TO WATCH ANTM 6 TMR.

HAHAHA

schedule next week is all at SKYBAR! that spells unlimited free drinks! :D & crapping with zayar. :))

&& seeing all those kiddies! and no stress of making drinks. WOOHOO! :)

but it still sucks. working on both weekends. WTF MAN!! unfair lar )): i dont wanna work on both weekends.

wed & thurs off :D yabadabadoo. i wanna catch ALOT ALOT of movies please! :)

love wrecked.
break up
devil wears prada :D
snakes on plane!

HAHA! anybody wanna sponser me? :) i actually can get tix from cathay @ 8.50/tix & am entitled to 2 tix per day. E2MAX member ma :D

4 movies & there goes erh, 34bux! HAHAHA :DDDD

TOODLES. gotta work tmr damn tired please :(

im so disappointed.

im only being treated nice, when you want to go out. and when you're out. you just give me that idiotic attitude cause u're busy playing games & cant even spend 5 mins talking to me or letting me rant.

and when im out.. i let you rant. at me, about me.


im sad

ICE CREAM NIGHTMARE

i see so much icecream everyday. i dont even feel like eating them ANYMORE. lol.

& suddenly, i feel like being a nurse :)

it's really cool to get different kinda working experience. so now, im down with F&B & office work. whats next? :)

xoxo.

DEFINE FRIENDS


tag my board yea (: thanks for explaining to me.

i really have no idea, after 17years on earth.

everyone i meet, doesn't really turn out to be in my what i define, friends category.

maybe cept for the crazy ones who really love me. & not turn around and, erh. say. gossip? :)

ANSWER

answer to the lame joke :D

throw a GREEN brick into the RED SEA u get.
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a wet brick. :x


DONT WHACK ME. HAHAHAHA.

desktop

my desktop super chio please :D

but blogger doesnt allow me to upload pics.

TOO BAD THEN

hurry tag ur answers to th lame question leh :DD

nice answer xiaotian. so creative :p

joke.

what do you get when you throw a GREEN BRICK into the RED SEA.

make a guess, tag the tagboard with ur answers :D

i'll post the answers when i happy. HAHAH! :DD

:)

HELLO :D

im not happy with life now

BYEBYE.

:D

fruits

I HATE FRUITS.

whatever kind of fruits.

I HATE VEG

whatever kinda veg.

and dad is FORCING ME TO EAT VEG & FRUITS. doomsday.

they even bought bananas :( I HATEEE.

im in for a hard hard time :( OH CRAPPP. somebody save me :(

on the other hand, my mozilla's looking wayyyyyy cool now. aw, dont give me that MOZILLA ALL TH SAME ONE WHAT! :D

mine's cool. your's NOT! :DDD

& xt, i will stop reading ur blog :X HAHA!

i need some entertainment. ANYBODY? :( im bored to death.

im evil

qinghe, apparently.

I AM EVIL.

right denna aka A?

why do i have to be NICE to people who thinks SOOOO highly of themselves, doesnt listen to instructions, think they are good and start scolding seniors when in th first place, they are so much WORST.

& of course, not forgetting the fact that. we teach you guys stuffs. dont wanna listen nevermind. still wanna turn around and give attitude not realising that HELLO, we taught u guys all those stuffs.

so, do you think that you deserved to be nice too?

hey, im nice to eugene okay. im nice to deanna, im nice to tiff, im nice to yilin, im nice to fadhil, im nice to jieying. im nice to alot of people.

cept the super cocky ones. the black sheeps.

sad to say, my niceness has a bad habit of being particular over WHO and WHAT it wants to show it's niceness too. oh shit, a load of crap.

& wait a min, do i have t explain why am i nice? uh-uh. no explanations needed.

oh, & you may wanna flame me or whatever crap. i dont give a damn.

toodles.

stupid mom.

dont know wtf is wrong with my mom lar.

apprently she doesnt know that i packed my stuffs. HAHA. wahtever man

give me attitude if u want lar. fuck.

now dad's angry with you and you come scold me? LOL. wtf.

call me a bitch fuck cheebye. fuck fuck fuck

braces.

i've got two sets of teeth to brush every morning.

1. my own set of teeth
2. my retainers ( my second set of teeth )

& retainers are damn cool now they even have black modules. :(((( and for 2and a half years, i didnt dare t mix colors. LOL! now eugene's showing off his colorful braces. GRR.

sometimes, pain from the tightening is also damn cool :) that includes rubber bands! :D so interesting. :DD

ohwels. it's troublesome. LOL.

happybirthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE (((((:

all th best for ur exams eh? ((: better study hard huh! (: hope u liked my gift. :D *loved. (:
and stop getting into trouble okay. hahaha :D im not so free th nxt time alr hor :D