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i got A+ for my WP! im a happy happy happppy girl! :) so my current results are 1 A+, 2 B+ & i pathetic D. :( sad case! the stupid COS spoilt my results :( arghhhh!

we took a really fun video :) i'll put it up later when my friend sends me :) laughs!

happy 20th anniversary darlinggg! i didnt realise, until i was signing my attendance & i saw 28june! HEHE love you, muacks! :)

oh then again, i swear i have tinge of dislikes for the rather stuck up overseas people. ahhhh. go die man :(

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SUPER HAPPY GIRL :)

my results are so-so this term :( or rather, compared to others is sucks totally. sigh, but what to do? oh well. blame it on the fact that, im lazy and i didnt bother to study at all.

but at least i got a B+ for my java! yayness :) i passeddddd! my CM got B+ also. & my COS is th worst :( 50.5 :( i'm still waiting for WP results. i think im gonna do badly as well. considering that fact that we were tested on input forms. sigh :(

oh well, some entertainment. Musuem of twits :) ENJOY MAN! laugh like siao only :D

oh well, i'm waiting for lunch. im hungry & im angry, and and, im irritated by that stupid mani's accent!

LUNCH TIME! :)

GETTING FAT.

im getting supperrr fat. considering the fact that i haven't been exercising for 1 month! :) cause it was 1 week of exam, 2 weeks of hols.

and as for S&W today.

the damn aircon was spoilt :( so we didnt do much, just a little popping & waves. AHHH, i cant do it :( i feel so fat. ugh. but i did perspire alotttt partly cause of the stupid aircon! so there goes today's S&W. didnt do anything much. SIAN

oh well, i got CATS project part 2 due week 13 :( SO FAST LAR. or rather, our class is slow.

i wrote a letter today. i'll get it back by airmail a year later :)

my CATS teacher is ultra ultra nice! :) she's like the BEST la. :) but sad enough, her contract ends oct 15 :( so she'll be going back to the states. where she'll send us back our letters. ooo! overseas mail :DD

she's travels alot. i envy her :( she writes tour guide books for penguin. so cool la! She gets t travel, to india, to china, to alot of places :( & her dad's a retired pilot. i want sucha life toooo :)

she's a nice person! i wish all my lectureres were like that fat hope.

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i haven't been hangin out with my classmates this few days. oh wells, alot of things have been happening. and i'm still sorting them out :) so yup! awhile more and i'll be back to my crazy self.

i realised, its a chore to go to school partly because i don't know what to wear to school! it was jeans & tshirt at first, then it became tshirt & shorts. HAHA.

its getting more and more casual :( i wanna wear school uniform laa! not like i have alot of clothes. maybe i shld follow shuqi's method. buy all the colors and all the designs of giordano basics. and wear to school :) one design ( for e.g round neck ) will settle 2 weeks of clothing! HAHAHA.

im so smart.

i wanna eat eat eat & eat. im hungry :(

oh well, tired man! wanna sleep already.

toodles!

im so not looking forward to going to school later. i'm just plain lazy to travel :(

imagine, primary school lessons were 30mins/period. then when we came t secondary school. it's 40mins/period. now it's FREAKING 2HOURS/PERIOD. dying already la.

oh my crapppppp. my stupid mother is nagging nonstop again. WHAT THE CRAP. dont know whats her problem man. i rather her not be at home. crap shit. whats wrong with not cleaning up my room? hello, its my room. i dont mind, whats your problem?

okay, now i think i wanna go school. rather then stay at home and listen to all her crap.

morning spoilt :) GREAT.

JAZZ ON ELECTONE! anybody interested? i just wanna go see th PRO PRO saxophonist.

if you're interested, just leave me a tag lor! :)

i'm FREAKIINGGG tired :( headache and stuff. :( but my newfoundlove is making me feel happy ! :) took quite alot of pictures today :) yay! im happy. despite the head smashing headache im having now.

CATS tomorrow. yay! hiphop :)

today lessons is like crap la. didnt pay attention AT ALL. COS - dunno what connie talking. i was just stoning away. and what she say was just... "BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH" nothing got into me. i just occasionally nodded my head.

i so amazingly got 50.5/100 FOR COS. oh its nothing but total crap.
i so amazingly got B+ for CM. heyyy, not bad leh this one =x HAHA.

im thinking of JAVA & WP now. oh well, i deserve it. :) didnt study no shit at alll! :)


byebye. i loveeeeeee you. =D
alright, outta here. tired. wanna go photoshop some pics. :)

school has officially started.

i swear i hate it. i dont want to wake up early. i dont want to take the stupid long bus ride. i dont wanna squeeze with people. i dont wanna cary heavy bags.

i dont want to surf blogs/friendster or whatever shit there is to surf and hurt myself.

i dont want to study i dont want to take test. cause im sick & tired of seeing my just borderline results. oh well. too bad la, i didnt study

i feel so stoned now, i wanna sleep. im going home to sleep later.

i need sleep lar. :(

i'm am so looking forward to the nxt holidays in say, 7weeks? that's long :(

AHHHHHHHHHH.

sickofschool.

i'll sing to you Lord, a hymn of love.

today's worship was exhilarating :) i enjoyed & learnt. despite surviving only on 2 hours of sleep. :) i'm glad i went. i cried, a few times.

i love God, God loves me. all this time, he has disappeared from my life (or so i thought) but to him, i've never disappeared from his kingdom, or disregarded me as his child. the only one who loved me, wherever i go, whatever i do.

through it all.

i hope k* comes t church with me again! :) i promise it wont be boring :)

biggest joke of the day. :( my feelings were cheated. i feel so sad. hais. :(

it went like that..

i was sleeping so peacefully, suddenly YY called.

YY : HELLO! you've won a package scheme by dunno-what-company ( he was talking so quickly )
*thinking that it must be those kinda telemarketing people wanna cheat me*
me: uhhuh.
YY: yes, in the package there are three items, the first item is a designer watch with 1 year warranty
me : *suddenly felt so awake* yea.
YY : the second item is a 150bux spa voucher. you can do the mask and etc etc.
me : *wahhh salivates*uhhuh.
YY : the third item is a 8day 7nights accomdation in a 5 star hotel in thailand
me : *OMGOMGOMG.*oh. isit?
YY : can you come down tomorrow to collect it? are you working tomorrow?
me : *thinking wtf he talking abt*no, im not working
YY: -laughs- oh, off day ah? (still can chitchat)
me : no, im not working. i'm just a student.
YY : oh, you mean u're not miss jean pek??
me : no..
YY : oh sorry, called wrong number.

(*$)(#^$)(# I FELT LIKE KILLING HIM LAR. i thought i was dreaming man. bloody asshole woke me up from my sleep! GO AND DIEEE.

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oh, and NUH sucks la! so slow in processing stuffs. lose people's forms.

dad was complaining about NUH to my aunt, who is working in NUH.

well, apparently, NUH lost my grandma's medishield form & are still sending bills to my dad even tho, its already all paid and stuff. my grandma signed the medishield form and they said they lost it. & they deducted money from dad's CPF.

my dad sent in letters and stuff. and they called him.

dad being super angry..
NUH : oh sorry, we lost your form. can you ask you mother to come down and sign the form again?
dad : MY MOTHER IS DEAD HOW IS SHE GOING TO COME BACK TO SIGN?

stupid NUH. they dont even have proper records la. DUMB MAN.

i must pray tonight, and leave the form on my dining table. so that grandma can come back and sign it. or maybe, she will visit the hospital itself. how dumb can people get?

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had a fun time at granny's house! bitched alot with my cousin la :) only shuheng was there :( we were gossiping about. EHEM. the AJC :X mag, shuheng say he very xiao zhang one HAHAHA! :X & she dun like him. WHAHAHA.

everybody's bloggin man! :) the adamsbloggin family TA TA :)

alright, nuff said. BYEBYE.

i feel so cheated :( esther dont love me. BOOHOO! >:( bites.

3rd attempt in making oreo cheesecake. FAILED miserably :(
2nd attempt in making oreo cheesecake. FAILED - too much cheese, makes one sick
1st attempt in making oreo cheesecake. pleasantly, NICE. :)

i give up man. im not made to cook or whatever. i fail as a housewife, so CAREER WOMAN here i come :)

oh well, i wanto take a nap. but esther doesnt allow me too.

I LOVE ESTHER MUACKS SI NI =x WAHAHAHHA. im lesbian :x HEHEHEHEHE.

i swear im crazy. :) but im glad girl you've become so EVIL. but eh, got limit one hor. BITES.

ESTHER IS DUMB, THAT MAKES ME SMART. THANKYOU ESTHER. =X

omg, my blogging sucks. im not in the mood. i wanto slp. BYEBYE


i love esther many many :x

CYCLING, ESCAPE & WWW!



my nails :( after swimming in the fully chlorinated & salty water! :(


for people who dunno. my IC no ends with a B! not and E -.-" what the hell!


interesting candy, in the form of POWDER! :)


ah, red lobster! :(

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i had an alright time :( cause always kenna scolding. and then, like haiya dunno how t say la. but whatever! :)

no mood to blog.. im tired.... :(


tmr gng out with grandma & aunty. should i dye my hair? no money. :( ohoh, aunt say she will sponser half ( dunno for what lar! ) cause i whined that i had no more money left :x HAHA.

oh well. tired :(

long day tmr again! :)

BYEBYE.

slackers inc!


CARS!

super nice foooood.

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I LOVE MERYL. I LOVE MERYL. I LOVE MERYL.

SHE IS F* HOTTTTTT. OMG. IM SO IN LOVE WITH HER! HER VOICE IS DAMN GOOD ALSO. OMGGGGG I LOVE MERYL!!!! she is like th second MAIA. OMG FUCKING HOTTTT. her voice is soooooooo powerful. im in love. IM REALLY IN LOVE.


I LOVE MERYL! *lalala, sings happily*

oh well, i photoshopped my pics le! (:

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my convo with esther.

me says: i got new love le
esther says:
HAR ?! THE X X AH ?
esther says:
haha
me says: no
me says:
NOT X X LAR
esther says:
haha shy =x
me says:
I IN LOVE WITH A GIRLLL
esther says:
haha ! ME =x
me says: SEXYYYYYYYYY HOTTT AND SINGER OMGGGGGG
me says: UR HEAD
esther says:
SO SHYYY !
esther says:
haha .
me says: *PUKES*
esther says:
haha ! go and die =x
me says: HAHAHAHAHAHA me says: i in love with th sg idol. MERYL!! hahahahaha

i swear she's the HOTTEST. woooo!


i love meryl. BYE KERVIN :X HEHEHEHEH i love MERYLLLL :)

check out potatomusmaximus.

i wished someone would whisked me away just like that on a holiday. well, it doesn't have to be THAILAND - BANGKOK, but i dont mind. oh, malaysia will do and i want big comfy bus with individual tv and many many leg room. i don't mind taking a coach t thai :) HEHE. oh well, i'm just day dreaming. i've to wait nong nong for that.

so sweet to have you loved one springing such a surprise on you :( if it's me, i prolly won't be able to sleep. the best surprise i got was from k*. haha, just simply appeared at my door step to have lunch with me :) oh well, i was whining away anyway. but that was decades ago. but actually, i always spoil his surprises. cause i somehow, able to guess. and he is so lazyyy. :( shall not talk about that.

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oh well, went out early in th morning at 9. i don't have enough sleep! was contemplating whether or not to blog now or at night, cause i wanna catch up on some sleep.

somehow, i woke up at 4am this morn. and i couldn't get back to sleep anymore. felt really uncomfortable :( suddenly miss k* alot, maybe that was th reason i couldn't get back to sleep :( so in the end, i succumbed to messaging him. a simple message with three words i miss you. and i got back th same reply! :) & got a call from him. i is elated :)

finally fell back asleep at about 7+am. oh well, i think fatigue took over :( and i just slept! but the convo we had for about 2 hours :( was rather saddening. somehow we won't be together anymore, but we still love each other. dancing with a girl hurt me :( oh well, what do you expect right? i'm sensitive, jealous freak. plain jealous :(

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oh well. i woke up early in th morn to accompany mom to th bank. she wanted to look for some investment funds to invest her stagnant amount of money in the bank which is earning pathetic interest of 1%/annum? around there la. i learnt so much today. everything about investment funds, the interest rate. and i stupidly said 8% of $1 is 80cents ma! and i was so happy that if i invest 6k, i would get around 5k back. then i was still so complacent. until mom counted the amount again and said 8% of $1 is only 8cents la! ophs, i thot it was 80% ma! haha.

had my lunch at the coffeeshop. not-so-great million fishball noodle. the auntie also very rude, so pissed off. chilli was superrr spicy. hahahah almost died :(

decided to proceed to UOB bank @ bp, and do some grocery shopping as well. wahpiang, the guy at the UOB bank talk talk talk, yak yak yak, nag nag nag. worst then mommy la! i almost fell asleep. hahahaha.

went t NTUC and bought some stuffs. and then, uhoh. stomachache. no choice had to go do big business. i feel so good after that. WAHHA! shopped alot at NTUC. bought like 77bucks worth of groceries :) and i've been stocking up on alot of snacks recently. i bought meatballs! YUMMY MEATBALLS :)

bought ingredients for the oreo cheesecake cause i still had one slab on the butter at home, might as well use it. going to GM house on sat for gathering ma :) make for my cousins lor! but like nobody eat leh! :( nevermind :D

left th things in th car and went back to UNITY pharmacy. mummy wanted t get cambridge diet. and she met her long lost friend there -.-" or rather, daddy's old sch mates, friend's sis in law. haha. i got nothing to say about my parents. everywhere they go, they see people! dad's the pro-est. even in DESARU, he met so many of his friends. what the hell?!?! singapore small ma, ignts. MALAYSIA LEH. *faints* may parents are that kua zhang. but i love them lehhhh :)

went to buy oldchangkee's sotong! really nice & chewy. uhm, i don't eat sotong one, but i dont know why i suddenly wanted t eat that :x hurhur! oh yes, i saw yilin @ NTUC and she gave me a super big big big big HELLO RACHEL, HELLO AUNTY. hahahaha! her sis reaction was th best. HAHAHA. yilin, don't have to announce to the whole world that, THAT IS RACHEL! hahaha :)

now i'm back home. my mom's determined to clean out all the kitchen cupboards. i won't be able to do it la. maybe the first cupboard, and then the second, and the rest. i will just do substandard cleaning :x and i'm lazy to change bedsheets also! :( maybe do it on saturday bah. my bedsheets very long nv change liao. LAZY MA

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oh yes, i had very filling dinner last night :) went to this new restaurant at ten mile junction called magic wok. the food portion is big and nice! it's like the typical tzechar u see outside. but the food is good. finally, something comparable to fajar's tzechar :) we had 5 dishes, total amount was 34 bucks. cheap huh?

chilli kangkong, prawn omelette, cereal prawns, honey chicken, thai green curry ( beef ) SUPER SHIOK i say :X and the portion is so big we couldn't really finish everything. but me, a non-vege preson actually ate alot of the kangkong! super nice mannnn yummy! now i'm hungry :X i feel like eating my pork balls leh :( but have to boil & cook. oh well.

alright la, sucha long post. so naggy. post up photos another time :) i've ALOT of photos. but very mafan :(

i miss esthie, sorry couldn't go cut hair with you :( i wanna pei my mommy! nan de she at home ma. or else she sure say i always go out and stuff. and i feel guilty for not staying at home! :) and the dye hair thing, mommy say go to salon and do with my grandma :( how?

love,
rachel

i miss you :)

cold day.

it's been raining, drizzling since early morning. and now, the sun's shining down so brightly. LOL. i guess, God's fickle minded too :)

i finally painted my nails black again. oh well, i think it's the nicest color - for me that is.

i spent the whole day at home. sucha good girl :) snacking on pringles occassionally. the maggi mee i cooked sucked! not enough taste - i want my tom yam myojo mee! :( i'm already thinking what to have for dinner. haha!

i ironed all my clothes :) now i've clothes to wear! but to where? i dont know la. somemore no money :(

HAHAHAHA the lock-lock tupperware thing, used da chang jin as their promoters. what the hell? so wrong la. different eras.

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was chatting with lizhen on msn just now. she in japan, me in singapore. chatted with her so much that she passed her time really quickly la! all thanks to me :) HOR LIZHEN :p

we planning to go genting! :) i wanna sit big big comfy bus with individual tv! :)) i'm thinking too much. we're just making ourselves so high. HAHA.

alright, going out for dinner. BYEBYE :)

i miss you.

fickle mindedness.

i'm super fickle minded :( and i take long long time to consider if i want, or don't want something.

tell me, i've already changed my nail colors SO many times. black, nice but abit too much. brown, weird. purple, SUPER NICE but th nail polish is spoilt :( thus, didn't come out nice. tell me? and i've already used up half the bottle of nail polish remover, & the cotton wools are getting lesser and lesser. :) i'm fickle minded.

that aside.

i'm already thinking of what t eat for my lunch. considering the fact that i'm broke, i'm left with only 2 bucks. and laziness overcomes me, i'm plain lazy t go out t buy food. but then again, what's there t buy with 2 bucks?!.

so i guess, i'll just settle with maggi mee + hotdogs! + egg. yummy :)

i think i wanna go back t sleep now :( it's so cooling, nice environment and climate to sleep in.

i wonder why has it been raining early in the mornings? and since when did army life get so slack?

should i change my blogskin? :) i don't know what to do man!

oh yes, MAYBE I SHOULD GO DOWN TO UNITY BAND FOR PRACTICE. ahhhhh. i'm so smart right? bullshit. i still nidda iron my clothes :( WAHAHAH.

maybe i'll drop down on friday laaa.


okay, now, it's time to decide whether to sleep, iron clothes or eat!

TATA.

i miss you, but i'm giving up. i think you're better off alone & me? i think i need some thinking through. at this point, we shall go our seperate ways. i love you.

bbyebye :)

happy slackers day! (:

i had fun with the other 7 slackers. from shopping for groceries ( i think we're the worst supremarket shoppers ) to slacking on the oh so comfy sofa at deb's house and to playing around with the steamboat - a pity there wasn't the hotplate :( it would have been so much fun! instead of all the soupy stuff ( i'm not a soupy person ).

but anyhow, i had fun. and tdy was full attendance! 8/8. YAY! the company was good. at least we had fun, taking photos :) painting one another's nails. :) & drinking alcohol ( i did, a few sips. long island tea sucks, wasted my money ) mag's face was all red from the stupid hooch and esther's face was all red from the stupid pink vodka.

but then, GOOD FUN! i love th slackers :)

im so bored now :( i've got desaru pictures, but i'm LAZY la. :( and i'm waiting for esther's pictures :) alot of cam whoring WAHAHA.


alright. i dont know what t blog. :) i bought basecoat! but somehow, today's painting SUCKS :((

alright, blog later la! :) if i've th mood. im super tired now :(

byebye

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL DADS :)

time to blog my MANY MANY pictures & videos :) first comes all the band camp videos. i swear they're SUPER funny. some la, not all :) i'll just put up the super super funny ones. the rest go t MY YOUTUBE and get :)

youtube is good for wastage of time :) super lame & gay vids! hahahaa :)



the tuba being washed. lame enough to put water through. really looks like a fountain. sorry for the low vid quality :( i didn't know how to change to th high quality vid. so the vid quality was actually for the MMS thing. haha



THIS IS THE BEST. THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE WHOLE SKIT CUM DANCE THING. HAHAHAHAHAHA look at yijie man. shaking like nobodies business. HAHAHA. laughter contributed by me & mag :x



this is th alumni skit :( so paiseh la. but it was good fun! HAHAHA. super funny. the actors can't stop laughing. eh it was super last min la. the plot was super funny!



not sure if you can here th song tho. just watch th dance :X



the two leaders performing :) really nice of them. they make the camp really sucessful la. :) oh they were saying, they dance until johnathan look like a girl & jieying a guy. poor jieying. lost all her voice.

BAND, MY LOVE.

can't find such bonds outside do you? can't find such friendships or people that went through such tough times with us. :) i love band la! oh, miss tan gave us this devotional book. but i've yet t use it :x SOON LA.

i've yet t finish uploading my desaru pics :) it'll be in th nxt post. (: i sure enjoyed myself this few days. from thursday all th way t today :)

i'm a happy girl.

& i love my baby! :)

im back from my. ONE DAY DESARU TRIP!

super fun i say :) although it was mom's colleagues. but then again, there's this nice uncle & his wife playing with my bro & sis. laughing all th way la! jokes & all. the itinery for the day was SOOO packed. & i'm so tired now :(

considering the fact that i've LACK of sleep. i need t recover TONS of it :(

i'll blog tomorrow la :( i need t sleep. i'm so tired.

ESTHIE COMING HOME TMR! yayness :)

alright. i miss my baby. :( haven't heard from him for a day! & now, i dont know where he went :( sobbbbbb.



byebye. :(

im back from camp :)

IT WAS FUN!

althought sleeping area was rather, CRAMPED cause we were sleeping in the music room ( with all the chairs & instruments ). ended up with cramps here & there. strained neck!

and now, my feets ( ?? ) are so painful. blueblacks & abit swollen. & the problem is i dont know how it happened. SO PAINFUL. and i'm going to msia tomorrow :(

skit & dances were SOOOO funny! food was good. YUMMY CHICKEN WINGS! :)

and, less den 5 hours of sleep. i need sleep badly :(

& tomorrow going to msia, i dont know how am i going to LIMP my day through :(

oh wells.

blog tomorrow :) i'm uploading th vids halfway, but mom wants me t sleep. so sleep i shall go :)

BYEBYE.

i miss my baby :(

i'm going for band camp!

shall update tomorrow :)

BUT THEN AGAIN, i don't know how much fun will it be :)

dunno whether t stay over anot :X

but then again, i miss my mates!

hahah i wanna eat porridge! YUMMY!

missyou, loveyou. :)

cast away all insecuritiess. ahhhhh

BYEBYE

i'll miss my sister & sisTA ( aka ryan ). & my bed. & momsy & popsyy.

BYEBYE

i'm a happy girl :) GOT MY CONTACTS! :)

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today, is a special day. i managed to salvage somethings. but then again, thinking back. was i doing th right thing? somehow, it might be th wrong circumstances. >:( if things don't work out, then it's okay. i wont blame anyone anymore. maybe it's just myself. this time, it's solely my fault :) i love you.

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jacinta is LAME. so is SGIDOL. goooooooood. what's wrong with jacinta. going "you're a dunno-what beast" HUH?

smacks head.

sgidol, you need some revision. :)

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tomorrow is bandcamp. i should be going :) then i'll be back on friday.

thinking of bringing my laptop. SHOULD I? :) doubt there'll be connection tho :)

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oh wells. i'm tired. my eyes are tearing so badly :( i dunno why! can't sleep late today. gotta wake up early tomorrow :)

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i swear i had the BEST nasi bryani ( I FORGOT HOW TO SPELL. damnit ) it was so good la! that i forgot to take picture hahaha! :) bigbig chicken :) yummy!

maybe it tasted so good cause i didnt have anything for the whole day :D sheesh.

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oh wells, someone say my black nails very ugly. i'm gonna remove it :) and maybe go for... a lighter color. nicer, more presentable :)

oh well, nuff said :)

LALALA.

m'sia this sat! YAYNESS (: no shopping tho.

ESTHIE I WILL MISS YOU. ENJOY YOUR TRIP! ((((:

and you dont always MY PRECIOUS here, MY PRECIOUS there leh. MY NAME LEH MY NAME LEH? so unfair. HMPH! i shall abduct your precious. & give him to KERVIN!

HEHEHEHEHE :)

love,
rachel.

went to BPP this afternoon, while waiting for esther. saw this two cute lil girls :) really really cute! see the pink matching hats. SO CUTE :)






there was this nippon paint thingy going on at th atrium. while waiting for momsy & the siblings. dad and i were watching the commercial over and over and over again. see th tv? -.-


and, since when did pasarmalams SELL BRA?


ugh, lousy burger! lousy macs.


and of course :) sucha nice picture. HURHUR.

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oh well, contacts that i made yesterday is ready le :) SO FAST & efficient. gonna collect it tmr.

mom's giving me attitude. dunno what she wants. everybody likes to hot&cold me. CRAPPPP :(

i packed my table liao what! alemak, dunno what she want la. irritated.

went for dinner at bangkit just now. i lost a brother & gained a sister :)

ryan : i wanto go unity! den can join th band.
me : go lor.
ryan : then i will say "hello everyone, i'm rachel's sister"

WAHAHAHAHA. i got a sister :)

& he cannot stand us laughing at him. HOHOHO. super funny.

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life is weird without you. sigh. :(

regretting doesn't change anything.

i want my precious too.

:( BOO. no shows t watch :( crappppp >:(

i chance upon this rather interesting blog, all the author's entries are in the form of pictures featuring a female stickman ( or woman if you prefer). visit her blog. :) http://stickgal.blogspot.com

i extracted out a few of the pictures that somehow or rather, depicts my feelings now :)


trapped in a bottomless pit. :(



i'm alone.

dumped. :(

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went to BPP just now. seriously, there's NOTHING at BPP to walk anymore. :( couldn't get my shorts :( sob. we couldn't even stay in BPP for an hour la.

saw uncle mike. hahahaha, too engrossed in watching WWE. didnt even realise i said bye to him. :( we could've gone to m'sia with them :( but too bad, mummy has exams! >:(

walked around. didn't really eat my XXL CHICKEN. i don't know la :( just didn't have the appetite to eat. :(

stupid esthie go pasir ris with herprecious. hahaha!

nothing to do at home :( sigh!

i miss you :( i admit i dont listen. actually, the whole relationship. i was just spoiling things for myself. so i should accept everything gracefully. afterall, it's all caused by me.

was contemplating whether or not to put on the ring. i put it on in th end. can't seem to let go so easily. but then again, sigh. things change.

and stupid LJ, i can't seem to figure anything out la. what an ass!

ugh, blogged enough. i shall source for things to do :)

byebye.

i remember vividly, one of the afternoons in the hospital spend visiting my grandma. she said this to me in cantonese don't get a boyfriend so early! study first. you must study hard okay? mama cannot live so long to see you get married. but studies come first. you must be a good girl okay? i'll never forget the day. i don't know how she knows, but she knows. she couldn't possibly read my blog right? but anyhow, that's another thing.

GRANDMA.

17 years ago, she carried me in her arms ( or so i assume. she has to right? i'm afterall the 3rd grandchild of the family ). i was never close to her. not even through these 17 years.

for the first few years of my life, i see her monthly. or so i assume ( i can't really remember anything ). and then when i was able to walk, say about 4 or 5? i started passing her monthly expenses from my dad.

and then, ryan came into this world. of course, another grandson. i can say my grandma is rather bias, but she loves me all the same. :) just that of course, who doesn't love the guys more? she dotes of my brother always asking my mom not to scold him ( even if he's in the wrong ).

so when ryan was at the walkable age, 4 or 5 ( with me 9, 10 ). he took up the job of giving grandma the monthly expenses. occasionally i still gave her hugs and a kiss when we left her place. we still talked occassionally too.

then came rayna. my grandma LOVED her loads. :) she was considered the youngest in the family. :) grandma doted on the two younger ones alot. and we talked lesser, and i don't even hug her. now all i do when i leave is byebye mama, byebye yeye.

a few years later, grandma was diagnosed with lung cancer. she went through medical treatment and was free from cancer. the next 5 years would be the "watching" stage, if it doesn't relapse, she is free from cancer ( or so they say ).

at this stage, i have stopped talking to her totally. occassionally just answering her questions. she's happy to see us once a month. i really wished we visited her alot more.

but, since november, we visited her alot more - in the hospital. it was painful to see her grumble about the hospital food. to see so many plugs plugged into her. she is a stubborn lady. she doesn't really like people to help her. she even scolded the nurses who were concern about her safety in the toilet. thankyou nurses, it's the best profession around.

her health begin to deterioate. she coughed blood almost the whole day. and finally, she was put on medication that will stop her pain but then, it does not work for everyone.

she was a stubborn lady. she refused to take medication - because the stupid darn doctor told her the cost of the full course of medication. it was 100bux/pill. and she has to take a pill everyday.

she was staying at home, and we always back to her place to visit her :) but one day, she was admitted into hospital because of difficulty in breathing. that's when things really began to get super depressing.

she was put on oxygen mask because there was too much moisture in her lungs and caused her difficulty in breathing. she was heaving and panting. she can't even go to the toilet in peace. she comes out of the toilet heaving so badly. it hurts to see her suffer so much

i wouldn't have mind so much if she just left in peace. but she suffered so much.

she was put on morphine on Tuesday, 28th febuary. and was in deep sleep all the way till she passed on. i didn't get to see her after sunday, 26thfeb. that was the last time i saw her. and she said i look like my aunt. lol, so funny :)

we were supposed to visit her on friday. but she left. on 2nd of march, 1020pm. i can't ask for much. at least i saw her on sunday. my cousin didn't even see her since chinese new year.

sigh.

i really miss my grandma. i hope she isn't gloating in the plight i'm in now because i didnt listen to her. mama bless me with good life okie? (: haha. i hope she's doing fine, where ever she is.

i love you - although i've never ever said that to you before.

mama, wherever u are, can you see kervin? :p handsome hor? haha! why u dont say my bf handsome leh? maybe cause u've never seen him before :( why you say crystal's bf handsome!

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granny i miss you. i hope to see you soon.




see how haggard is she? :( poor thing.

i'm so pissed off.

don't know what's wrong with my crappy family.

SISTER lose her damn book ( SHE ALWAYS LOSES IT ). and there goes mom, RANTING NONSTOP. shouting screaming. then the sister? CRYING AWAY.

crap.

i think huan le tian fong is. LAME. that guy is SO ugly, and he can MODEL? he cannot even walk properly! AHHHHHh

what a crappy day man.

i spend the WHOLE day sleeping. how great :)

and since when did bryan had the ability to judge? he is nothing but another winner in yet another competition. tv shows are getting lame -.-

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on a lighter note, i made my contacts already :) say goodbye to B&L :) haha. now it's biomedics. :) hopefully it'll help my eyes. i'm NEVER going for hardlense. mom wants me to wear hardlense. OMG it's so gonna kill la! :( painful.

my eyes are super dry. sian :(

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there's something superly wrong with my phone. it just BLINKS and BLINKS. GREAT. problematic phone. >(

now it's alright. HAIYO.

take so much care of it also useless. :(

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sometimes, i think i should give up everything in life. it's nothing but just a passing cloud. maybe i should end everything. life, r/s. ahhhhh, everything.

i thought things were fine this few days. but then again, i always expect something. we won't ever be so peaceful. quarreled yet again.

when you need someone to talk to, you call me. talk to me ever nicely. but things do change quickly. today, you said "lets not talk so much, dont call me so much" oh great. then when i'm bored i can't call you and stuff. but when you're bored you can?

sigh.

hais i don't know la. i thought things were getting better but i'm wrong la. i'm just hoping things would be better over again.

sigh.

true, i should just stop, and get on with my life. :)

things that are written inside my heart, it's up to you to retrieve them. i'll never wite those things down.

i dont think i'm going to ubin tomorrow. i just don't have the mood to have fun anymore. i'm not getting old. :)

HAHAHA marklee lookalike.SO FUNNY. but whatever.


fuckthisworld.
rachel:)

MACDONALDS SUCKS.

i swear they suck big time. cannot upsize student meal. what the hell? i always did that la. maybe that damn guy was new. nevermind, i walked home hoping to have a NICE meal, and guess what i got? deformed burger with NO CHILLI SAUCE ( i bet mag will kill the person if she didn't get any chilli sauce ) & fries that taste like CRAP. and, when we ask for serviettes. you only give us two pathetic pieces. and guess what this crap person gave? A WHOLE STACK. enough to clean the mouths of a family of five. die mcds.

i should have had long johns. at least i won't be fuming mad.

seriously, i'll opt for KFC anytime or burger king. mcd, your standard's are DROPPING. and you gotta train your newbies wayyyyy better. crap shit.

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ah, talk about cutting down on food, i'm just stuffing more carbos & fats into my bod. hahaha! that's when uZAP comes into gooood use. :)

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i should get down to cleaning up my room soon. haha, i've clothes thrown everywhere. the front of my bed, the back of my bed. HAHAHA. i swear i'm th messiest girl around. & not forgetting my oh-so-clean table that only managed to last, 2 weeks.

oh, and i love this picture :) prettily photoshopped. proud of my own work.

oh crap, there's something really wrong with my phone. i don't know why the cable JUST DOESN'T TRANSFER FILES. or rather, even to connect, lappie doesn't sense anything from my phone. crap you. bluetooth transfer is SOOOO slow also. aye, don't talk about infared. bored.

i'll post up th deformed burger with lousy crap fries and no chilli sauce later la :)

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BPP atrium got baleno sales :( i wanna get the 3/4s. considering the fact that i'm so pissed off with th shop at fareast :( bought the shorts that i can't wear. TOTALLY CRAP.and for a longer length ( or most people prefer to call more cloth ) its the same friggin price. :(

me : BALENO having sale @ atrium in bpp.
mum : so? buy yourself la.

OH CRAP.

now, i feel like sleeping. despite waking up 3 hours ago :)

HAHAHA.

i shall go



pack my stuffs.

and poor lil esthie is in town. with someone she doesn't like.

dear esthie, i hope you enjoyd your day :) i am really happy to be home on this bright and sunny day

much love,
RACHEL

HAHAHA :)

i'm SUPERRRR tired now :( it's 1130. and i've been awake since 5! my eyes are closing, having MASSIVE headache. but i decided t drop a post :) i'm so nice. HAHA.

well, it's for my own references & archives :) it's really nice to read back on what you've wrote - thinking of how childishly you've behaved OR how weirdly you've typed this post OR what kinda emotions ran through you. SO, thumbs up to blogs :) cause i'm soooo lazy to take out a pen & write on a proper journal/diary. :) my handwriting sucks anyway, and it takes up WAYYYY more muscle usuage & energy then typing away :)

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something rather, amazing happened today. i slapped my brother, no. not the first time though :) well, he deserved it. that's for being rude to mummy, you BRAT!

and consequences? had to chase him down the corridor of the damn shopping center. it was lucky i didn't bang into anything or anyone. & running in the m)phosis slippers isn't easy at all. :( i risked having my slippers fly away. :( worst, mom & sis enjoying the show downstairs. ahah. :)

and yes, i wanna scold that sonofabitchmffatassguy. YOU SUCKERRR. you fatass, so fat block the WHOLE corridor & still dare say that my bro knocked into your son? BASIC KNOWLEDGE will tell you that, the corridor is cramped, you are fat and so, get your damn ass in and walk in single file. and you still dare to challenge me.

so you think, i'm a girl that don't look as OLD as you faggot. old man with young wife. WTH? and then u dare to shout at me. you stare at me somemore?! well, it's my damn eyes, and you're in the wrong. and i swear, if i didn't manage to get my brother, you'll damn hell get it from me you sucka! you better be happy my brother didn't run away. @#*&@$)(*$*@$)(*&$@

man, i just let you off :( regretted it. ohhh, i so pity your small build son being squshed by my brother. crap, i don't think you're very small size either, and you could have easily SQUASHED your own sons.

AHHHHHHHH. crap die you mf.

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but then again, it's been a rather occupied day. and i managed to keep my mind of you, at least for a lil while :)

& am glad to receive your call :)

i know you still love me, i know you still care. i'm getting all this unnecessary insecurities. i know you'll stay - at least for now.

at least you still share your day with me :) at least, you still talk to me. at least you still give me kisses. but i want to see you so much. i miss you.

alright, time to go to bed, massive headacheeeee. but lala :) i can sleep in tomorrow! HOW GREATTTTTT. hahahaha holidays make me happy :)

i shall now.
.
.
.
.
.
go to bed.


OHHHHH, not forgetting :) i bought 1 pair of heels & 1 pair of sandals today :) & a blouse from bugis! ahhh, just some impromtu shopping cause dad had t go to sim lim square :)

ohhh well, i forgot to tell them to you :( i was just so agitated over that stupid fat ass.

alright

should i go to ubin with the classmates on tuesdays? i'm afraid i'll go MISSING! :( haha. but it'll feel weird without you. I SHALL CONSIDER :)

gooooodnight people :)

love,
rachel.

I MISS YOU :(

i failed miserably.

i didnt manage to keep to my word of not getting affected by you :( it shows that i still care so much. manage to fall asleep around 12, despite going to bed at 1030! :( imagine, flipping and tossing, and turning for 1 and half hours. >:(

and woke up voluntarily at 230 -.-" tried to call, but all i go was the number you dialed is unavailable, please try again later. :( alright, fell back to sleep again.

woke up at 5 to pick up your call :)) and never went back to sleep! i'm so tired but yet, energectic. weird.

we talked! you sangg :) i melted. it's worth while afterall, just for that few hours of chat. :) makes me a happy girl.

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went to church today. i think, i'm finally getting about admitting that i'm God's child. and he loves me, even if you don't *SULKS*

it's raining so heavily now >:( going sim lim with my parents later, which means no afternoon nap for me. :( i'm so tired.

but then again, it's the HOLIDAYS :) and i can sleep for as much as i want to.

should i go ubin with the classmates? but i hate mosquitos! :(

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mag, going for band camp?

NJ CONCERT. who want tix? :) its my turn to support my cousin & huizhong. :) WAHAHAH.

it's been a long time since i went for a concert (unless you consider resonance 1 - but that's performing ) wasted, do we have CCA points as alumni who participate? :(

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i'm just ranting crap!

time to go.. do something else, I CANNOT SLEEP :( else, i wont wake up to bring rayna for piano.

in the mean time....

i shall..

go read the damn papers :)

love,
rachel

ps: I MISS YOU.

i think i always bring myself shit circumstances. i always get myself into trouble, but the catch is. trouble i created for MYSELF. sadistic huh?

but still whatever shit, i can't leave in comfort all my life. how nice would it be, to see myself as an angel ascending to heaven with the bright and mighty light shining down on me. that would be the time, i'll live in peace. now? i'm just nothing but a crazy bitch whining away. and wallowing in selfpity. angel? hell to that. i'll never be one. so much for going to church. HA.

tomorrow, i shall tell the world that i've finally lived through one miserable night without getting affected by you. :)

it's church tomorrow, maybe it's time i get happy and excited all over again to go to church. :) maybe it was wrong in the first place, and God's doing me a favour by correcting my wrong doings. Amen. :)

it's once again, maplestory craziness. well, i've got nothing better to do this few days. especially when it's holidays and i've spent ALL my money :) how great! and, i've got no where to go. and days seem weird without you and projects.

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actually, i think i'm just thinking too much. i could live normally without contacting you on normal days. but now, knowing that you might just disappear from my life anytime, i tend to get worked up & frustrated over you. wondering what you're doing. i concluded, it's just all insecurities. :)

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listening : for all you've done - hillsongs.

i'm so hooked up to this song :)

My savior Redeemer
Lifted me from the miry clay

Almighty Forever,
I will never be the same
Cause You came here
From the everlasting
To the world we live
The Father’s only Son And

You lived
You died
You rose again on high
You opened the way for the world to live again

Hallelujah, for all You’ve done

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i think occupying my thoughts with other things except you does me some good. :) at least i wont really bother about you.

but why now, am i ranting nonstop about you in this post?

i've gotta think with a sensible mind, a sensible girl at the age of 16 going on 17. no more the girl you knew when you first met me at the age of 15 :)

and, i shall stop hanging around in front of the computer, or wait aimlessly on MSN ( which i know no one will chat with me ). shall do other things. computers, i had enough. MSN-ing since p6. what the crap. this phase of life shall begin to disappear slowly. i need to find another rather addicting to make my life more interesting & exciting. computers are dull.

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i shall go read books AGAIN :) dan brown - definitely addicting. albeit the lame story plots.

love you. but then, rachel still lives.

pictures time! :)

JUST FOR LAUGHS.



the girl with the wings corset ( really wonder why would people where this kinda clothes out. ) and the gucci bag esther wants. HAHA. :)

all my spendings :(


MYUK wallet/MNG razerback / Crown belt/ M)phosis slippers :)




nice watch! :))






HANS rocks! cept for the soup, bread & rockmelon? the black pepper chicken chop is YUMMY! :)



HAHA photowhoring :)


ah, myself :)

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lunch at redstar tdy :) really old school push cart kinda tim sum restaurant. good food too! :) it's always tim sum session when we bring grandpa out for lunch, daddy burned some discs for him to watch at home also :)

it's been 3 months since grandma left. i think we're all settling down already.

photos later!

love,
rachel

PS : i need SLEEEEP :( not enough SLEEEEEP. :)

missyou.

i've let off steam somewhere else.

but no, i'm still not feeling better. but i can't get to sleep.

it's heartbreaking. but whatever, rachel you're tough. :) you did it once, you can do it again.

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but then again, i'm wallowing in self pity. lol, i pity you rachel. fuckingsickinthebrain.

scolding myself is fun :) rather, hurting myself is fun. sadistic, crazy.

i'm really turning schizophrenic.

i spend too much today. and because of that. i shall suffer for the next two weeks. the ATM card is evil, so are creditcards and debitcards.

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oh yes. bitched with liangtong alot. man that girl rocks. & her lameness KILLS. so much for being a mass comm student huh! :)

common enemy, hatred list. WAHAH. and crap, the bus flew us back home today.

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i'm tired but yet i can't sleep. i dont know what i'm doing. sucha random post.

i'm just making myself super tired.

i'm gonna fall sick sooner or later.

selftorture. :) loving it. i'm sadistic. :)

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oh yes. GUCCI GOT SALES. the line esther repeats to everyone :)

esther sucks :( she brought me into GUCCI, GUESS, ARMANI EXCHANGE, BURBERRY. and i swear the things there are fucking expensive. :( my virgin visit. HAHA, super funny man. she sure has expensive taste.

me? i'll stick to giordano, bossini & baleno :) HA.

anyhow, damages today.

m)phosis slippers - $13.65
MNG racerback - $19 :(
XTOMIC offshoulder - $19.90
crownbelt - $19 ( esther physcoed me )
fuckingunwearablepants/shorts i dunno. - $15 >:(
myukwallet - $29 ( fucking expensive sigh )
hans dinner - $8.80
watch - $10

total = $134.35 :) GREAT. i'm broke already.

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oh WP paper was crap today. i finished it in half an hour, and was not allowed to leave until the end of the paper, which is 1 and half hours. GREAT. so i just stoned there for 1 hour. i swear that 1 hour went by as slow as a snail crawling from my room to mom's room. stupid management! :(

and i waited super long for the stupid bus.

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i miss you. but then again, i think i should let go. i'm a fucking loser :)

oh maybe that name suits someone else, in a loser school, doing a loser course :) and trying to hard to be a loser.

i'm off. not in a good mood, but yet can't sleep. should i give him a ring?

ughhhhhh.

fuckingsick >:(

damages : $135.35

the first time i spent so much. i'm regretting it. & the shorts i bought? i can't wear. screw places that don't let us try. fucking scam. shouldn't have bought it.

& a broken heart.

i give up. maybe it's the end of you & me. i'm totally discouraged. no point to live on anymore. :)

fuckthisworld.

BEST VIEWED IN MOZILLA FIREFOX



stupid cookie :x HAHA! roar roar! :)



fishball stuffing competition. WATCH THE WHOLE VID, so hilarious. :)



LOSER of the THUMB game! she had to eat the fishball spat out by bonz. HENG AH. me & esther escaped :) "just think it's a normal fishball" :)



CAKE SMASHING. look at the shock face man. LOL super funny. :) esther laughing like siao! HAHAHA. super funny


photos later lar :) i'm watching tv now. should i paint my nails BLACK? HAHA, disgusting shit. shall see how la. :(

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sometimes, i wonder why is my life, so interesting.

nevermind, i've decided to rough it out. :)

i dont know how i'll change. maybe i'll end up giving up and letting you go. i dont know how hard it will for me to change. i'm selfish. i'm useless, i'm hopeless. maybe i'll just let go. sorry baby.

its hard for me. two fucking bastards. and u've to suffer. i'm sorry, really sorry. it's my fault. i cant seem to be free like i used to. maybe it's better if you go. every relationship a stepping soon, unfortunately, the last two spoiled everything ahead.

fucking bastards. AHHHHhh.

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later. :) i love you, but if it's better for you to go, i wont stop you anymore.

heartbroken.

i think SG IDOL is overrated.

and people who waste money to vote, is totally stupid. cause the producers earn money, and the singers don't sing well enough ( at least not to reach th standard of the previous of sg idols ) i can't sing for nuts :)

and for goodness sake, the judges ( cept for dick lee & florence lian ) the jacinta, looks kinda BORED with them, and doesn't wanna give any comments. or is see trying to be like ken? i think ken is alright, but jacinta is halfway here and there. NO NO.

i think the sg idols this year, not powerful enough :( i want maia & olinda! hahaha, :) i'm crazy over maia, remember? haha.

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anyhow, many things happen this few days. monday was CM paper. was alright :) then had dinner at almeen. which was rather sucky. roti prata. crap. went home, and was supposed to study. but then, didnt study at all.

tuesday. went to find my dear and had a chat and stuff. :) had FSP. woahhhhh, surprised that the paper was quite alright. 1 hour up, 3/4 the exam hall left. GREAT HUH. lol. i left as well la. met xiaotian & seng at the canteen den went to town.

how great, the TWO people. quarrelling because we board the wrong bus. seng said 52 can la. xt said we see by the time we walk there, the bus still there anot lor SIDETRACK : OMG, I LOVE WOON! SHE SO CUTE LA. HAHAHAHAHA. alright back to topic. in the end, the bus turned left instead of right -.-" ended up infront of shell! so had to walk all the way to KAP. crap right! AHHA. all their fault la.

ended up in town, and went around buying alot of things lar. getting people to meet us and stuff. and finally, after much delay. we ended up in seoul garden. and finally, started to eat. and did alot of STUPID things. i think seoul garden's staff was rather pissed off with us. and their THANKYOU when we left was rather, fake? :)

smashed cake - which brandon didnt know anything. it was super sudden. only a few of us now. den everybody went "AHHHH" lollll. fishball eating competition - loser (brandon) ended up eating chaota meat ( which we prepared since we started eating - it was actually a plot to sabo him cause it's his birthday ).

esther, xt, ky & i didnt get anything for him. last minute shopping didn't work. so esther & i sneaked out to buy a present for him. JUNIOR SYLVESTER. we walked all the way to heeren from TAKA. walking back was super fast. dunno why. and he was so surprised. haha, many many surprises that night.

and the ending, outside taka. they made him drink beer with egg. 2 cups of it somemore, we smuggled eggs out of seoul garden. LOL! he ended up drinking the whole bottle.

left after that, was getting real late ): and i made someone angry :( sorry!

wanted to study, but was too tired :( and went to sleep instead. HOW GREAT. didnt study at all.
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went to school to cram abit. but didn't manage to cram anything lor. :( and the paper was super difficult, everybody came out grumbling. it's worst the FSP. it's that BAD. :( crap!

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anyhow, no paper tmr :) yayness! left one more. Web Publishing. easy tootsy. :) just flip through abit can alr :))

going to finish watching my tv shows. and then, DA VINCI CODE! :)

i think i'll upload the pictures to the server first. HA, if i have time. i'll post it up

cya ladies :)

BYEBYE. :)

I say a little prayer for you, I say a little prayer for you
The moment I wake up, before I put on my make up
I say a little prayer for you
While combing my hair now
And wonderin' what dress to wear now
I say a little prayer for you

Forever and ever, you'll stay in my heart
And I'll love you forever and ever
We never will part and how I love you
Together, forever that's how it must be
To live without you would only mean heartbreak for me

I run for the bus dear, while riding I think of us, dear
And say a little prayer for you
At work I just take time, and all through my coffee break time
I say a little prayer for you

Forever and ever you'll stay in my heart
And I'll love you forever and ever
We never will part and how I love you
Together, forever that's how it must be
To live without you could only mean heartbreak for me

Darlin' believe me, for me there is no one but you
Say you love me too
'Cause I'm in love with you
Answer my prayer now
Say you love me too
Just answer my prayer now
Say you love me too

Forever and ever you'll stay in my heart
And I'll love you forever and ever
We never will part and how I ove you
Together, forever that's how it must be
To live without you would only mean heartbreak for me

The moment I wake up, before I put on my make up
Answer my prayer now
Say you love me too
Just answer my prayer now
Say you love me too

Forever and ever you'll stay in my heart
And I'll love you forever and ever
We never will part and how I love you
Together, forever that's how it must be
To live without you would only mean heartbreak for me
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nice song :) i was watching date movie instead of studying. DIE RACHEL DIE.

i shall go study now. nobody is in school :( no lunch today for me again. crap shit.

sigh, i dont know why we always quarrel. i think i should shut up :( and STUDY.

enough crap. :)

i'll blog later. bye lovelies.

i'm sorry. i shouldnt have gone out till so late.

i have many things to blog about. but now, i'm just too tired. i need to go study abit. but my eyes are closing.

i hate exams. i've since put exams behind me. but now? i've to study yet again. and i'm so tired. so far, i've not studied for any papers yet. how great? 4 papers, two down. and i didnt study at all.

i wont be surprised if i fail and retain. i've really got no mood for this exam, AT ALL. no mood to study, no mood to even sit for the paper.

and to think i left after 1 hour exact, on the dot. i'm going to do the same for the rest of my papers. i dont give a damn anymore.

having this massive headache. i'm thinking so much, worried how you are feeling. my bad. :(

i think i need to calm down and do some thinking, but i'm tired. freak shit. and i can't study NOTHING. :( and worst, there's no sample paper on MEL. fuck you connie.


my eyes are closing. and i'm broke. crap shit.

i hate my life.

and i'm still on cold war with mom. :) how great.

hail my new friend. ASSTHER. HAHAHAHAHA

assther<3rachie.
rachie<3kervininie ( -.- )
assther<3bennie. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH :X

ophs :d dun stab me assther! please dontttttt :d


i so love ASSther =d

i study, for you.

but now, i find no point.


shrugs.

no mood. moodless. ahhhh whatever shit crap.

sometimes i dont know how to describe myself. my mood all depends on one factor, you. lol.

rollercoaster ride i'm on. but whatever, no one cares either.

goodbye.

photos overload :)




esther's WALLET & HP. rich girl. i wnana steal alr. :)


at cathay cinema - XMEN 3, THE LAST STAND. i bet there's gonna be another part of it :) nice show anyway!

SUPPER at bukit timah market :) looks good uh?


don't know what's with my sister's expression. -.-"

HA, i'm pretty RIGHT? :x


sister's read hair. so cooool :x

cathay building

THE OH SO COOL TAP IN CATHAY'S TOILET weehee!


i love my sister.



dad's new car :)

MY STUPID IDIOTIC FRIENDS. HAHA

pizza hut's kids meal ><

messy sister.


always angry mother. -.-"

b e a u t i f u l .


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okay, photos up. menses sucks. cramps hurt. I DUN WAN. :(


so freaking moodless now. i dont know lar. lol. you bring me high up. you drop me down. thou shall not care.




exams tomorrow, cut hair & sakae before exams. HA ultimate slacker :) rachel sow.

but anyway, i HATE maths. :) i think i MIGHT do some work later.

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oh whatever, stupid random post. BLAH. esther, like, ben. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH :X dun stab kervin okay.

i am waiting. :)